Im pretty sure that good can come of opening up to *the right and trustworthy* people... they can help you have a better life

i feel fine right *now*, thoughts are 'calm' and 'normal' and i feel in control..today i spoke with my endocrinologist, found out my thyroid, operated on a year ago to remove a tumor, is fine! yay!

i expressed to her that i was hoping it would be 'unhealthy' as that would explain my weird thoughts and mood...

sometimes i become confused, my head foggs up, i struggle to remember, to focus... I get paranoid ideas, obsessive thoughts and massively depressed anxious affect and mood... suddenly the most minor twinge is a heart attack, a smile from a friend is them knowing that i will fail and reading my thoughts because they are talking to everyone else about me, i become a failure and life gets challenging... at the same time i tell myself 'no, why would they think that, who wants to talk about you, who has time in their life to bother with quiet unobtrusive me'...which doesnt help the self esteem...and i introvert despite attempts to maintain a social existance and stay involved and active...

she recommended seeing a gp especially to talk about the suspicious thoughts

...i feel silly for discussing it with her, shes the first person ive told...well verbally face to face...
and i have a theory that it might just be poor stress management and loss of focus that leads to the downwards spirals,

im struggling with the desire to not go spiralling down there again, and the belief that if i just manage my stress, stay calm, stay focussed then i can make it unassisted...
so half of me want to pursue help and the other half says go it alone.

what does anyone think?
can positivity, focus, goal oriented behaviour and forcing oneself to socialise keep you away from downwards spirals?

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I would definitely follow her advice and discuss this with your regular doctor. We all feel silly, like we’re over-reacting, but I’ve found that it’s much better to seek medical advice and assistance sooner rather than later. Why suffer when you don’t have to?

My thought is to ask you GP to refer you to a psychiatrist for an evaluation and any appropriate treatment. While not true of many GPs, my experience is they do not like to deal with emotional issues. But too, whatever works.

thanks, its so true, suffering thats avoidable shouldnt be welcomed, like the wolf stalking the sheep, the biggest stick available should be picked up and used to hit it away, and then littler sticks thrown at it repeatedly to keep it away
...or for a less generalist response ot the threat, pick up the sniper rifle, line up the finely tuned scope, and expertly dispatch of the first wolfy... then remain alert and trigger happy as you watch happily over your safe flock

I'll organise to chat with the gp

Good luck, georgiegeorge.

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Please let us know who it's going, Georgiegeorge...