Wish you were here - Possible Trigger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know for sure if I am having a one-woman party, relaxing, or substance abusing. In any case and whatever it truly is (though probably a combination of all of the above), I am doing it tonight. I made a reservation at a really nice (higher class) hotel for a *CHEAP* price. I have a great room, I have free high-speed internet, I have alcohol and bubblebath and LOTS of pampering waiting to happen. I have more than enough alcohol and I would kill to have a boyfriend right now! I've had a share of that alcohol already. And more to come. Oh, I also have new satin jammies! And--not that any of you need to know this--but I also found a great clearance sale on bras for $1.24! ROFL I *so* needed some new ones! Someone wanna party with me, please contact me on AIM or ICQ, huh? PM me so I know who ya are. Much love,
inky

sounds like you are in for an evening of much deserved pampering but please.....be careful with the booze......

((((INKY)))) <font color="dark green"> not the booze! LOL but I am there [i]dahling[i/]..... TC what a neat thing to do! Good for you.. hmmm didn't you share your car with an um um eh critter???

((((((((((((((((((((inky))))))))))))))))))))) i LOVE to get away to a hotel with nice things! i do that every so often when i need it. i pamper myself and feel special with nobody to bother me.

but, since you are alone, you must keep a limit on the alcohol. otherwise, i so hope you enjoy yourself!

kd

Why can't we be in adjoining rooms?! I would love that! Party by proxy, or how is that? Thank gawd for internet! My T seemed pretty serious knowing about me taking like 10 Vicodins. Think he'll like this type of abuse better? Which is better--abusing Vicodin or alcohol? Does it matter? I think that my mind really just wants to relax, and the only way it knows how is by taking something whether it be a lax, or whatever. I'm not sure my mind cares, just so I do something for emotional reasons. This isn't entirely emotional with the drinking either--I think?!?!?!?! But I *DO* deserve the pampering and "vacation". No T could argue with that. But now the question is... Will I be able to withold myself from leaving my T a voice mail, AND for how long? Sigh. Hey, the cheese and crackers the hotel left me tastes awesome!

You know, I really wouldn't trust passing a breathalyzer right now, LOL. Okay, so it's wrong, but I am sure my T will chew me out if he doesn't approve when he finds out. I have the water drawn and I will take a dip in a nice relaxing bubblebath soon. Wish I could take my computer in there! I will have my cell phone, so please do look me up on AIM still.

If I would there I'd snatch that drink right outta ya hand lady! LOL Wouldn't you feel better about the whole thing if you didn't PLAN your regrets? TC

Regrets? WHAT regrets?! LOL I'm enjoy'n' every minute of this! (so far!) Still wish I had a hot boyfriend with me, but dreaming and internet friendship will have to do. Of course, PTSD history almost forbids such a thing of me having a boyfriend. Okay, ladies, I need a ladies night--what can ya do for me?

Luv,
inky
(who, by the way, after this alcohol is wishing she didn't have a history of stomach problems and pre-ulcers, but is willing to live dangerously.)

Make sure to eat plenty and drink a glass of water per drink, so the hangover won't be SO bad. Stay in your room and be safe, and have fun!

Thanks, I'm having fun! Unfortunetly not fun enough. Still wishing I had that dream guy with me!

Who needs Men...... They stink!!!!

You have fun Inky but be safe. OK?

<~~~~~none of that.

Luv,

Jen

Lmao sounds like fun. Don't need a guy all he would be is a dream.....not that all men are bad it's just not all it is cracked up to be. In a few months they are all face in TV or reading or something NOT all into you..BUT have SAFE fun

Like the U2 song says, 'A woman needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle.' Enjoy yourself!!! I'm filled w/joy to hear that someone is really celebrating an independent day!

And the day ends too soon! Or it started too soon? In a great hotel instead of my car and I still woke up at 4-5am! I didn't go back to sleep, or even try. I checked email, started surfing, and watching TV. WHAT is wrong with me?! A time to sleep in--in a real bed--and I don't take advantage of it?! You know, I was planning to take a pill or two for a better effect with that alcohol last night, but I didn't. When I took this one pill I've got with the Vicodin, it worked better and I wanted to try it with the alcohol. I don't know if I am kicking myself in the butt for not doing it, or proud. My time here is limited to a short number of hours now. Have to enjoy it while it lasts. Would have loved more chat company last night, though!

Enjoy...but oh please don't make any rash decisions about company....just treat yourself and remind yourself that you're creating a healthier person for a good relationship...(by treating yourself)....Nothing wrong w/a little decadance now and then......just remember the borders.....