Indecisiveness and Uncertainty...

I hate to do this, but I'm really not sure where this goes or what it would be categorized under. Feel free to move this if you think a different forum is more appropriate...

Basically, it feels like something's going on with me and the only way I know how to describe it is 'wrong'. I feel sometimes intense emotions over nothing. For example, sometimes I will just get what feels like frustration - that's the only word I'd be able to use to describe it even though I'm not completely sure that's what it is. It's like I'm extremely anxious over something, but it's not a panic attack, and I feel a lot of things at once. I just don't know how to describe all the things I'm feeling. I have recently stopped self-injuring, something I used to do to cope with these feelings, and now I feel like they are even more intense than ever. This time though, instead of just trying to get rid of them, I've been trying to figure them out and I just can't seem to do it.

It seems like something wrong with me, but I'm having the hardest time putting my finger on it. I just don't feel right. How would I ever be able to explain this to a T when I can't even put words to it? It's extremely discouraging.

I also find that my mind changes itself a lot. I know this sounds weird, but one moment I'll think "Absolutely. Positive. No ifs, ands, or buts about it" when thinking about something, then a while later, "No! Never!" I mean I can have one opinion about something that I truly mean at one point, then have a completely different opinion that I also think I truly mean at a later time. I've stopped completely trusting myself about thinking some things because I know they are subject to change at any moment. And this isn't some "Should I get ice cream? Okay...eh, no. Well...maybe. Nah." type thing. This is about big decisions, moral issues, where I stand on certain subjects, etc etc. Sorry if this is confusing, it confuses the hell out of me too.

Anyway I just thought I'd post and ask because lately it's really been getting confusing and I'm so tired of not knowing what it is that's wrong with me. Any input of any kind would be so greatly appreciated! Thanks!

Hi, I can't answer for you but what you wrote sounds like me with sever depression, or going that way anyhow. That's how it starts to feel, it is called agitated depression. Hope it helps, look up some stuff here on depression and see if it helps. I am glad you are choosing not to S.I.

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Print what you wrote, and take it to a pdoc. He or she will know. I understand what you mean about being disgruntled and changing your mind a lot. I do it, too. I have so many dxs that I don't know what goes with what, so I can't be of any help to you.

Please go see what a real doc thinks. Ok?

Many hugs,

Jan

These are part of not being mentally healthy.... try and just "be" with it for a bit, eh? Allow yourself to be indecisive right now... and tell others, no I can't make any decisions ...this week! lol Stress makes it so I can't be sure if pushed to a decision... I had to memorize it as a mantra, I don't make any decisions "at the moment"... I'll decide another day...

I understand it's obviously not 'right', and I get that, but I'm asking for anyones insight or opinion as to what it might be? I know it could probably linked to many things...but I know it isn't depression. Sorry, I know this is all very vague but I just don't know how to explain it...

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