loneliness

shadow, I know what you mean about sharing your pain irl with most people. I can feel a wierd wall go up. And then soon they say gtg. They do not want to know that side of me. But that makes the lonliness. Because there is a significant part of me that remains unheard, unknown. I do not know if I wrote this on pg 1 here. But I used to think " I could scream as loud as I could but no one would hear". It is true that most people do not want to hear the part that is in so much pain. And that leaves that part desperatly alone.

Freak, look at what good you have started here. We all can talk about these feelings that we try to hide. Thank you for that !!! Again, I am holding your words. with respect and caring.

I can be very alone in the company of someone else. Because there is no way that person can know the me that longs to be known.