[krisakira]

So the new season of Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew was on TV today. I caught the middle of the first episode and am recording the next couple episodes that are on tonight. I really like that show. Not because of the drama, in fact that is the part I really hate about the show. I just wish people would stop arguing and chill out. But this is real life. Most reality TV shows are very fake. But I can see the realness in Celebrity Rehab. These are real people, with real addictions, and real issues in their life. Of course they spice it up with teasers (such as showing a dramatic scene and saying it will be coming up next or in the next episode) to get the audience to tune in and watch the whole series. But aside from all that, Dr. Drew really does work with these people to become better people and resolve or at least chip at their personal issues. And for that, I applaud the show.

Anyway, the new season has this guy (I don't even remember his name. Most of the celebrities on this show, as well as Sex Rehab, I don't even know, despite them being "celebrities.") who is on the show is a drug addict, of what drug(s) I don't remember, and despite his horrible attitude and sloppy behaviors, I really do relate to this person. I don't relate to things that have happened to him (his father was so into drugs and alcohol he became unable to parent, and his grandfather who used to parent him passed away so he didn't have a father figure in his life anymore.) But I do relate to his laziness and sloppiness. He is the type of person who even LOOKS like he hasn't taken a shower or changed his clothes, even when he really does. I'm not sure if I look like that even when I shower and all. But anyway, some of the better looking women (who have had plastic surgery and face-lifts, etc, like most women celebrities (if I may make that generalization), were calling this guy out for looking so ugly and slobby. One woman asked if he had taken a shower, and said that he had stains on his shorts, which ended up in a huge dramatic brawl between the two.

Anyway... to get to the real point of this note.... They showed a clip of one of Dr. Drew's one-on-one sessions with the guy. Let me look up his name... Ok, it's Jason Davis, aka "Gummy Bear." So, Jason was having his session with Dr. Drew and he told Drew that he is starting to realize what some of his problems are. He said his problem was that he believed nothing he ever did was good enough. He also said that he hates that he can't be more independent. He said he doesn't even know how to do his own laundry. (I suppose that he was spoiled from when he used to have servants living with him, to do everything for him.) I sympathize with Davis, because I feel I can't do normal day-to-day activities, like my own laundry. I don't take a shower but once a week. I don't clean my room often, and let it get very dirty. I've been like this a lot even when I was a child. Granted, I never had servants, nor did my own parents clean my room. My mother made me clean it after she couldn't tolerate it anymore.

This session led Dr. Drew to tell Davis to take small steps in order to get his life back on track. He said to start off by cleaning his room. I'm assuming that, although it was only day 5 of treatment by then, he had gotten his room pretty messed up. Dr. Drew called cleaning his room a "small step." When I heard that, I was surprised. To me, cleaning my room is a HUGE step. For some reason, I make it out to be such a huge task that is almost unbearable to do. I even get proud of myself when I take a shower more than once a week. Another thing that stood out to me was when Dr. Drew said specifically that cleaning one's room is "owning the room." It's like taking charge of your own space. I can tell you, I have NOT shown any signs of controlling my own space. That is a neat way of looking at it. It makes me feel more motivated to clean my room. Although, I am still afraid of such a huge task. I know it shouldn't be a huge task, but it feels like it to me. I know that most of the reason I feel unable to do these mundane every-day things is because of my major depressive disorder. Davis probably has depression that affects his ability to do such things, too. And of course his drug use doesn't help either. I do know that the phrase "something in motion stays in motion" is true too though. (you know, unless it is affected by an outside source such as gravity, friction, etc. like newton's law states.) But this statement is true for life. If you stay in motion by going for walks, runs (not bathroom runs, yuck), and other exercise, your body will get used to it and want to stay in motion. That is the #1 way to get energy, not some energy drink, like Clay's mom wants to get, but that is a WHOLE different story there. Anyway, the only way to GET in motion and stay there, is to take that first step. The step I am so extremely scared to make. Just like Davis is probably afraid to take.

I'm very curious to see how Davis does in the rest of the treatment, and dealing with this issue of his. Maybe I will learn something from him, or simply be motivated to take action for myself.

Anyway, I'm outta here!

[so_punk_rock]

I love that show!! And i get it. When you have major depressive disorder you dont want to do anything. I could relate to alot of those descriptions of you and jason(although i still kinda think hes a douchebag). But i guess i dont really know him or his life story so i just hope they all can get better.