[KUREHA]

I wanted to put this here, instead of a different part - to avoid affecting anyones opinion.

So there's a nurse, she's part of a conspricay against me, she formed a clique that my nurse is part of and she's manipulating and turning people against me.

There's stuff my nurse knows is true, but because of what the other nurse is doing - she just says it's all in my head.

Who do I go to?
The police don't see why a nurse would do that - but I doubt anyone expected Harold Shipman to kill people either. her job title has nothing to do with it.

[KUREHA]

Well the police came and the officer I spoke to was definitely on my side, he's going to sort it out tomorrow

[Perna]

Where did you get the information? I would assume you would not be friends or have contact with the first nurse and I'm sure she would not tell you if she was conspiring against you and her clique would not tell you either?

What would your nurse get for being part of the one nurse's clique and turning against you? What do you have that the first nurse wants?

It is a lot of work to form conspiracies and keep things secret and work with a group which may or may not do what you say. It doesn't sound to me like the nurse who doesn't like you would care that much about you to do all that work and get in trouble.

[lynn P.]

((((KUREHA)))

[Yoda]

I remember in the past you said that you trusted one of the nurses but not the other. Do you still trust the one that you trusted before?

[ECHOES]

Kureha I'm sorry you are having rough times right now. Have you spoken with your prescriber to let them know what's happening?

[KUREHA]

The police haven't called back yet, I hope they haven't believed the lies, because he was totally on my side.

That nurse has been part of the conspricay for a while - she's like their person inside - she wants me dead.

I don't trust any of them.

[sabby]

((((((((((((( KUREHA )))))))))))))

I'm sorry that things are getting to you like this again. This is something you really need to talk to your T or psych about hon. Maybe you can discuss it with the nurse that you know likes you and have her confirm that the meds you are on or should be on are safe for you and help you feel safer and less worried.

Is there anywhere you can go where you feel safe and out of harms way? Try to do something good for yourself okay? Maybe that will help you to relax a bit and get that other nurse off your mind for awhile.

Take care of yourself KUREHA!

[KUREHA]

My nurse is on the other nurses side - she obviously lied to the police because they didn't call back.

I don't see my psychologist any more and I can't talk to the psychiatrist, my nurse has to make an appointment so I can see him.

Just going to try and keep safe.

[sabby]

I'm glad you are going to do your best to keep safe KUREHA. Sometimes when things are scary, we have to push through and bite the bullet to get what we need. It seems to me that you really need to talk with your psychiatrist hon....can you find a way to fight through things and ask your nurse to make an appt for you?

Take care!

[KUREHA]

Yeah ok - I just need to wait until next time I see her - she said I can't call.

I'll look for some protection though.

[lonegael]

Hang in there Kureha. It's horrible to have to live with the feeling that there is someone out there how hates you so very much. Please remember that we don't, and that there is someone out htere who thinks you are pretty neat stuff? OK? HUGGGGGSSSS and see if you can get to your Pdoc, like Sabby says.

[KUREHA]

Thanks - everyone just believes her lies, when I know how it really is.

I see my nurse a week on Wednesday - I'll ask her then, just depends if she thinks I shoud.

[KUREHA]

My mam is going to call for me tomorrow.

My psychiatrist will know it's real

[sabby]

Oh that's great KUREHA....I sure hope your mam can get you in to see the doc sooner than the nurse would.

I hope you are finding some nice things to do for yourself in the mean time hon. You deserve to have nice things done especially when they are done by you! Wishing you some pleasant thoughts today and always!

[KUREHA]

Was a total waste of time, my psychiatrist and nurse came down today and I got forced to take medication, it was either take it right now or you're going to hospital (not right that second)

So I took the meds, but it wasn't meant to work out that way. I don't get it - I didn't even say anything weird.

[yellowted]

I understand exactly where you are coming from, try talking to your GP, he/she has the authority to refer you for an appointment with the psychologist and psychiatrist without going through your nurse! You need to keeep a record of events , then talk to your nurses boss about your suspicions backing them up with the facts in your record of events. you may have to insist and quote your rights to talk to higher authorities, but it is worth the fight!
I had a similar thing with my social worker, she was a mean piece of work, she threatened me she would remove my blue badge, taxi card, direct payments which pay for my carer and my buss pass if i bought myself a mobility scooter out of my savings to enable me to leave my house on my own when my carer was not around!
she also has stuffed up my chances of ever getting my house adapted by adult services too! but by gathering evidence (i secretly recorded a meeting where she reitterated her threats and then i played it to her boss!) I was assigned another social worker. the new one is much better but the damage with adult services still remains and they refuse to adapt my home eventhough i have been totally wheelchair bound for 2 years!
you have to be as sneaky as they are to gain your evidence but once you have it things will get better.