I have all my existential thoughts on the toilet and while urinating at 3am I realised the extent to which i am just another human in life's passing parade.

Of course I always knew this but I never thought about it before because I saw the future as kinda limitless in possibility, but now I thought about it and really, despite my association or personalization of my existence, it's another generic human existence which will be filed and catalogued and be accounted for.

I also went off my Efexor a few weeks ago with my psychiatrist's help. Down from 300mg to 225mg. I'm feeling alright, but perhaps an unhealthy focus on life's grim realities.

Yup.

[pegasus]

I think as human beings we all wonder what is going on and wonder why we are here. The answer to that is within you. By the way, I like your user name.

[noneedtoknow]

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

I have all my existential thoughts on the toilet and while urinating at 3am I realised the extent to which i am just another human in life's passing parade.

Of course I always knew this but I never thought about it before because I saw the future as kinda limitless in possibility, but now I thought about it and really, despite my association or personalization of my existence, it's another generic human existence which will be filed and catalogued and be accounted for.

I also went off my Efexor a few weeks ago with my psychiatrist's help. Down from 300mg to 225mg. I'm feeling alright, but perhaps an unhealthy focus on life's grim realities.

Yup.

Well, we all have these thoughts. I find the older I get, the more frequently I have them. It is not a bad thing, evan if it feels "fatalistic" It is a reality-it's just not wrapped up with pretty packaging . And it can make us take a look at our lives and see if we are spending our limited time how we should be. I had to laugh when I read your post, My thought was yup, until the "another generic human existance which will be filed and catalogued and accounted for" I thought, "I don't even know if I will be accounted for-I havn't been any big deal" and that is ok.
You mentioned about going down in your Effexor. It seemed like your were implying that because you went down in med, you are going "down" in your thinking (depression?) Always good to be aware of, but maybe your just having a short bit of time thinking that feels uncomfortable to you. Don't know. But whatever, I hope you are doing well! Thanks for posting.
noneedtoknow

[thea_kronborg]

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

I also went off my Efexor a few weeks ago with my psychiatrist's help. Down from 300mg to 225mg. I'm feeling alright, but perhaps an unhealthy focus on life's grim realities.

this sounds familiar. when i went off my antidepressants last fall, i started to feel "okay, but grim".

in retrospect i wish I had taken it as a sign that I was still depressed and needed intervention. if i had had a better living situation at the time (living alone, my husband and family hundreds of miles away, somewhat hostile job) I might have managed it. But things went badly and eventually (two months ago) I had a major depressive episode.

I'm back on antidepressants and much, much better now.

of course we're different people and in different situations, i don't mean to scare you. I'm just saying, pay attention to your moods. It is a normal thing to feel grim, purposeless, small in the universe, from time to time. the question is, does it last and can you deal with it.

thea