[Sanada]

Is it wrong of me to be ashamed of the guilt of my father. He was such a powerful man in his life. He was also a monster.
He did so well in terms of getting his b.s.c's, I never even got to the start point.
He was always abroad with work, I've never left the island.
He made $, I did not.
He was married four times, I have not (yet).
He got published, I have scraps of paper.
He lived well, I do not.

Out of all that I love of him, I am half of him.

He was a Monster, I am not.

Should I love his memory on fathers day.

[Can't Stop Crying]

I don't love my father and will not be honoring him on fathers day

[Lostime]

I never knew my father, my mum never talked about him I remember her and my grandparents arguing about him one day when I was 8 years old, I lost her when I was 9 and they died when I was 16 and everything even his name is not known to me, the little family I have and my adoption parents know nothing, I've tried everything, I don't even know his name.

It is hard to know I have a dad I will never know..........

"Sanada"

Sanada I don't know what to say, we both have holes but it is so different.

All I can say is don't feel guilty what ever you decide to do.

(((Can't Stop Crying)))

.........love you all

[foundation 1]

Originally Posted by Sanada

Is it wrong of me to be ashamed of the guilt of my father. He was such a powerful man in his life. He was also a monster.
He did so well in terms of getting his b.s.c's, I never even got to the start point.
He was always abroad with work, I've never left the island.
He made $, I did not.
He was married four times, I have not (yet).
He got published, I have scraps of paper.
He lived well, I do not.

Out of all that I love of him, I am half of him.

He was a Monster, I am not.

Should I love his memory on fathers day.

Either way, what ever you decide is ok. Just by writing about your father you have acknowledged him and I think that is enough. Hold your head high and feel good about the rest of _your_ day.
My father is deceased. I loved him dearly, but father's day can hold it's own mix of emotions. This day used to be especially hard for me. Now they're just another day that I 'have' to remember...then go on with my day the best I can. I hope you have a GOOD day for yourself.
We can waste so much time worrying on what could/should of been.