[Yack]

I was /have been feeling better and I just got a message from someone I care deeply about. He was a boyfriend on and off for 7 years and we were just talking about living together (today)...He has since called me and said that "He is on a date"...This was in ONE HOUR.

I am not usually a wimp, but since all that has happened, I do not need to hear this.

Everything is going wrong, one after another after another.

What is wrong with people.

[bipolar_bear]

Oy Yack. What a terrible thing to have happen to you. Sometimes it seems that everything is going wrong all at once and just makes it overwhelming. I hope things get better for you. I am really sorry about your friend.

[JustBen]

What a bizzare and hurtful thing for him to do. Hang in there. You're making progress; don't let anyone take that away from you.

[Yack]

I feel like people are stepping on me left and right. It's so much fun...

Oh well.

Yack, Yack!!!
You're not having much luck with the men in your life.
Sorry you got kicked when you were down.
Hang in there. It's got to get better. Just keep holding out for the tide to change.
Until then, we're here to listen!

[Yack]

Wait, it gets better...lol - my life is starting to look like a joke. Thisi s a soap opera.

A few weeks ago I went out with someone else as a trial - I mentioned it in General - J- the 2 of us have been friends (just friends) for longer than my serious boyfriend...it went very well, it was the first time I have felt good in a long long time...we seemed very happy....we were supposed to see each other again in a week.

NOT EVEN A PHONE CALL. - it has been 3 weeks...

The guy I mentioned above (M) has always been a close friend/serious boyfriend and knew about the date with (J) - and vice versa. J knew I had seen M.

The moving in was as friends with the possibility of more -

and J mentioned living together also...but not for a long while, at least a year...

I am not playing around with either of them - I don't do that - both of them are dating around, as was I.

I am usually traditional but ever since V (the one who caused the PTSD - and me to become a lump), I have become nuts. Confused. I am starting to wonder what the deal is with people. I am really not trusting anyone. I feel like I am being played...I don't want to juggle like this but no one is being straight with me. neither of them.

I have no idea what is going on.

M said : "I need to show some initiative..." huh?

J told me I was beautiful and he did not care I was sick and it was ok I had lost weight and he wanted to help me get through this.

Ok, it must be like a soap opera because soap operas confuse the heck out of me and you've got me baffled.
So, you were supposed to move in with 2 different guys? The one knew about the other one but that's okay because they are seeing others but now you're upset because the one you spoke to on the phone said that he was on a date.
I don't get what the problem is if you knew he was seeing other women as you're seeing other men.
If you're not trying to complicate your life, intentionally then it sounds like one or two things are happening or perhaps both at the same time...
1) You're insecure and giving yourself insurance by giving yourself more then one option to fall back on and in giving yourself that insurance you're making the men in your life feel insecure and needing to take out their own insurance to protect themselves from getting hurt.
2)You're rushing into things with either or both of these two guys because you're desperate to get away from this house you hate living in.

Have you thought about seeking out a female room mate until the romantic aspect of your life becomes a little more sturdy?
It sounds to me that you may need to take a step back. You may be wigging these two guys out because you don't seem to know what you want.
If someone was planning to move in with me but looking at his other options with another woman-I wouldn't feel so great about that.
I don't know if I understood the situation. If I've misinterpreted then I apologize. I'm really trying to help and not hurt.
(((((Yack))))))

[Lexicon78]

I'm so sorry he did this to you! You don't deserve to be jerked around this way. You deserve so much better and you are going through so much. He must not realize that you are a great person and that you can offer him so much!

Hang in there.