Dont know what to classify this--and i dont remember if i post..

Well, i think i have split personality disorder or something. I mean, tell me if im wrong guys..but, sometimes i change my clothes like 2 times a day because its the way i feel, and my attitude is totally different around people..it changes so drastically. I'm thinking its a split personality disorder or something. But maybe its part of my bipolar?? I dont know. Sometimes i also will get up in the morning to go to school and I'll constantly change my clothes because its the moods im going through, and ill act totally different to certain people that day, but i do that only because it just comes out, i feel like i have no control over that. heh. I'm always changing, and i need help badly. I havent seen my Doc/T in about two weeks because of my ***** mother of mine cancelling a billion times. This week will make it my third week because my mom needs to cancel AGAIN!! grrr. I desp. need to talk to my doctor about this because im seriously thinking about i might have this. If not, then i dont know if its leading into schizophrenia or not. But anywho, I also cant remember stuff from like yesterday hardly at all. And no matter how hard i try to remember things i never do, and im only 16. heh. I try different techniques and it still doesnt work, yeah.. Could that be part of a mental disorder and not so much a neurological disorder??? I'm just wondering if its maybe a symptom of something or if it can be. Well, AGAIN, I'm so sorry if I'm wasting your time guys, its just i feel like i have no where to go for the past three weeks, i feel so alone, ya know??? Well, replys would be great if you want. Thanks everybody for at least reading.

Deb

I'm sorry you are going through so much right now. Although I cannot tell you if you have a split personality or not, I can completely relate to what you are going through. It is terrible to feel all alone. Also, depression can be the cause of your failing memory, not just another disorder.

It's not a good thing that your mom keeps cancelling your appts because it sounds to me that you really need them at this point. Have you told your mother what is going on with you and that you desperately need to see your doctor? She needs to know that you are in need of immediate therapy.

Deb,

I'm sorry this is a hard time for you. Can you see the therapist without your mother, or do you need her for transportation? I know when you are feeling extra stressed it can affect your memory. Is it possible you're changing your clothes a lot, because you can't get the exact effect or look for which you are striving. I also think at age 16, you may still be making up your mind what "your look" is, and haven't decided. Hey, I'm still deciding on mine, and I'm significantly older. I'm feeling very stressed out with the holidays this year myself. How is school going for you?

All the best, Jane - Oz

School sucks, i cannot remember anything, literally. I have bad memory problems, i might get an MRI done soon or an EEG or something like that. And i need transportation to get to my T. And changing my clothes...my attitude changes with it..so0o0o idk. it seems im a different person all together.

oh well..

deb