[chelseamonster11]

Over the past couple years I've had some things happen that changed me. I have been depressed for a very long time for different reasons. I've been on pills, had therapists, and been in a mental hospital. Being depressed has made me think differently, but I've been that way for so long that I just take it for granted. Sometimes I'll be in a good mood and think about something in a totally different way than I normal would, which is what's confusing me. I often find my thoughts are contradicting themselves and I can't pick a side. I don't know who I am anymore, everything is relative and I can't stand it. I have tried so hard to fix myself but I always seem to get stuck back in the same place I started...

[Mediator]

Start to do something without a goal. Try meditation, painting or charity. Meditation is helpful to connect with self.

[slowinmi]

Hi chelseamonsther - I feel that we are always changing and growing. You said that the change has happened recently for you. It sounds like you've had a really tough year with lots of changes.Maybe this feeling is something that will settle down if you can develop some balance in your life such as the meditation that Mediator suggests. We are all here to learn and grow from each other. The combination of things that you're trying such as the exercise and therapy may need some adjustment. Please contact your physician and let him/her know how you feel. There is help available. Take care - slow

[Lucky777]

Originally Posted by Mediator

Start to do something without a goal. Try meditation, painting or charity. Meditation is helpful to connect with self.

I like that idea! "Start to do something without a goal"

I drive myself crazy all the time trying to figure out which goal to undertake (and they sometimes conflict - like eat healthier, eliminate debt? -- they don't go together)

[Mediator]

Lucky
my own experience.