[Sanada]

Over this weekend it's been the target I did not think I would get to. October the 1st. I joined PC in April 2011. I never thought I would get to this month with out 'self harming'. I did though.

Its been a very tough summer and I have had some (mental) low's. Also deep depression. PC and friends have helped me to the target I was aiming for, and helped me through some dark times (which would prom't a trigger to s/h). Also when I have been hyper (which can also prop't a trigger). October is my fav month. I love autumn (or the fall in usa).

I am back again studying and moving more properly again. I am starting to feel like I am in control more and more. Now the material I am studying comes so much easer (sanada is shocked)....
I have been waiting for the trigger of positive movement, instead of (just being triggered to negative thoughts), to kick in.

I am back being busy with focus (its funny how something creeps up). I never would had thought 6 months (nearly) of no s/h would have happened 'this year'.

Thank You...

[Gently1]

Good for you Sanada!

Congratulations, Sanada. Well done.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((sanada))))

Congrats my friend. That is something to be proud of and we all celebrate that with you. So glad you came to PC. Write out the positives you know already and post them around on post it notes so that you can see them. I have positives posted around that remind me each day so that at times when I cannot seem to hold onto them I can read them. (bathroom mirror, refrigerator, by my computer, beside my bed).

I also have a book of positives that I try to add to and then when I am not able to add to them or even feel the positives, I can read them and then date the page so that when I look back and am in a better place I can see that I did go to them. Sometimes just reading them or seeing them can help them to stick and then as you can continue to add to them.

I do have my journal (many, lol) of thoughts that I write in each day, but I try to keep the positives out of the negative things that I need to write so that somehow they do not get lost or meshed with the negative. Just a thought to maybe help you hold onto the positives when those negative feelings start to rise again.

Keep it up sanada. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

[gma45]

This is just wonderful news, You have good reason to smile which in turn makes me smile! Congratulations!

[likewater]

What an accomplishment!

[madisgram]

a wonderful accomplisment, sanada. thank you for sharing your success. it offers hope to others.

[Sanada]

Originally Posted by darkpurplesecrets

((((sanada))))

Congrats my friend. That is something to be proud of and we all celebrate that with you. So glad you came to PC. Write out the positives you know already and post them around on post it notes so that you can see them. I have positives posted around that remind me each day so that at times when I cannot seem to hold onto them I can read them. (bathroom mirror, refrigerator, by my computer, beside my bed).

I also have a book of positives that I try to add to and then when I am not able to add to them or even feel the positives, I can read them and then date the page so that when I look back and am in a better place I can see that I did go to them. Sometimes just reading them or seeing them can help them to stick and then as you can continue to add to them.

I do have my journal (many, lol) of thoughts that I write in each day, but I try to keep the positives out of the negative things that I need to write so that somehow they do not get lost or meshed with the negative. Just a thought to maybe help you hold onto the positives when those negative feelings start to rise again.

Keep it up sanada. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

Thank you DPS.
I do have little reminders dotted about to remind me of what's gone by. I do feel though that reaching this 'Mile' stone and touching it has been like a boost for self confidence. (A 'mile stone' is something we have on the roads when 1 mile outside the city's). Its good luck to touch them as one passes 1 of them. I guess my mile stone was/is reaching October
Thank you for the support you have given while I have been here (I am not going anywhere), I still have things to work out and PC has been good for my soul. Also I would like to keep trying to help others who are going through similar experiences.
(((PC))).

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Sanada))))

Milestones are important. Hold onto them. The more positives we can gain and hold onto is key, for when the negative comes we are steps ahead (even if it is one or two) that gives us hope and knowledge that we can keep going.

I know that for me when the hard times come it is the positives that pull me through and the support that is here and IRL. Even though at times it is hard to hold on to them when the hard times are there, somewhere in the back of my mind they are there and the more I can touch them and say them (or see them written), I think the hard times are not quite as long as when I had no positives or milestones to grasp onto.

I am honored to be your friend. I am glad you are here. My support is here for you as I know that your support is here for myself and many others. You are doing great. Thank you for sharing and know that you are cared about. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

[Gus1234U]

well done, Sanada, it's been a pleasure getting to know you ~ best wishes,, Gus

[Sanada]

Originally Posted by Gus1234U

well done, Sanada, it's been a pleasure getting to know you ~ best wishes,, Gus

Thank you Gus...Its been a pleasure to for me.
I thank you all for helping me through this difficult year. I hope to help you and myself to in the future in all our trials and tribulations...

[Open Eyes]

That is wonderful Sanada, you rising from the ashes the phoenix has come into you.
And though the flight may not come easy all at once, keep those wings in motion and ofcourse your friends are here to encourage you too.
Open Eyes

[Sanada]

All in Pc (friends), are good support that I could 'never' had envisaged at the beginning of this year.
I have deep feelings for you all for helping me to see a different path up the mountain.

I know I have 'stepped out of line' when first coming here. I was triggered easy.
Now I have sooooooooooo much better control of my being 'triggered', thanks to you guys..

That help and self help of being in control only came from you guys... Thank you.

I know that my path has just begun. It feels like taking that first step, and 'noticing' I have taken a step.
I still have a lot to learn, I am fine with that.....(sanada is a constant student).

My wish now is (while I learn), to help any others to find the/a path that I happened upon out of pure luck (or fate), by finding PC in the first week of having the internet at home......(sanada was fortunate).
I am fortunate to have you as my friends in the 'world wide web'.
Now though it feels like (members and PC), is part of my real life (you are part of my real life), forever.
Thank You.