I was walking and I was on the grass bit of the beach and I walked pass a group of teenagers. When I reached the farther end, I'm sure they shouted a word which could be directed at me. I thought they said fat. I tried to ignore it. When I came home, I went to the loo and my mum told me off because I went to the toilet too many times today. I drink water so I can be healthy. So basically, this is all my fault. I want to forget and shut off the world. They don't want to see my ugly face. I'd rather be in my own world of emotional pain and loneliness. People don't want me my fat body walking on this land. I hate living in England sometimes. The people here aren't very nice. Especially the scum teenage groups. When I was walking home one summer day, someone threw a water bottle at me in their car. Luckily, it missed me. I am innocent. Nope.. I deserve this. I don't need this *hit. I have enough to deal with. People love to cause me misery and pain. Maybe they want me out of this world. This world can laugh at me and call me names. I deserve to suffer. Every time I cut myself or bash my head against the wall. This is what them abusers would love to see. I would rather live with my boyfriend. He wants me to be happy. He would protect me. *sigh* Thanks to them idiots who have caused me pain. I hope you like the sadness on my face. The tears flowing down my cheeks. Thanks for making me feel like rubbish. It makes you happy when I'm sad. You deserve all the happiness. I don't...

[Elana05]

(((Happycheeks)))

I can hear the pain in your post. Please know I am sending many deep good wishes and care your way. I'm sorry you are having such a rough time right now. What would happen if instead of feeling like you deserve the pain, you allowed yourself to be angry? You are totally justified in getting angry at those dumb kids - and who says when we can or can't use the toilet anyway??
Be gentle with yourself.
It is OK to be mad. You have a RIGHT to exist in this world. You have just as much right as anybody. This is TRUE. Do I have a right to exist? Me, Elana, living over here in the States? Yes. And YOU TOO have a right to live and to feel at ease, without deep pain and sadness. I hope you can listen to the little voice inside you, to treat your inner-child with care and love. To those who are not respectful, just feel sorry for them. They do not respect themselves.
Many safe hugs.
Elana

Originally Posted by Elana05

(((Happycheeks)))

I can hear the pain in your post. Please know I am sending many deep good wishes and care your way. I'm sorry you are having such a rough time right now. What would happen if instead of feeling like you deserve the pain, you allowed yourself to be angry? You are totally justified in getting angry at those dumb kids - and who says when we can or can't use the toilet anyway??
Be gentle with yourself.
It is OK to be mad. You have a RIGHT to exist in this world. You have just as much right as anybody. This is TRUE. Do I have a right to exist? Me, Elana, living over here in the States? Yes. And YOU TOO have a right to live and to feel at ease, without deep pain and sadness. I hope you can listen to the little voice inside you, to treat your inner-child with care and love. To those who are not respectful, just feel sorry for them. They do not respect themselves.
Many safe hugs.
Elana

Thank you for replying. Thanks for being caring. I'm feeling better now. I do deserve to be on this earth. But people say I am a gift. How am I? I'm just a person living life. I will try to listen to the good thoughts. I do have a right to live.

[Rohag]

Every day I see the beauty you post on many people's pages. I'm glad you're here.
Happycheeks!

Originally Posted by Rohag

Every day I see the beauty you post on many people's pages. I'm glad you're here.
Happycheeks!

Awww Thank you Means so much to me.

[missbelle]

I looked again at your allbum and what I saw was a very pretty woman. Look again! The young woman in those pictures is lovely!...and that lovely woman deserves all the happiness......

Originally Posted by missbelle

I looked again at your allbum and what I saw was a very pretty woman. Look again! The young woman in those pictures is lovely!...and that lovely woman deserves all the happiness......

I'm okay looking but thanks anyway

[Chancellor]

Hey, lady, it isn't your fault that other people are rude, ignorant, insensitive, etc. If they don't like you, that's their problem.

Originally Posted by Chancellor

Hey, lady, it isn't your fault that other people are rude, ignorant, insensitive, etc. If they don't like you, that's their problem.

You're right.

[thefascinatedone]

I have been reading your threads and I really feel that you should stop treating yourself so low. You deserve happiness and you will get it!
The people are trying to play silly pranks on you are just immature people trying to have a laugh as their own life is not good.
You're not bad and there is nothing wrong with you. Do not harm yourself, ever.

If anything, you are a very fun-to-talk-with person.

Originally Posted by thefascinatedone

I have been reading your threads and I really feel that you should stop treating yourself so low. You deserve happiness and you will get it!
The people are trying to play silly pranks on you are just immature people trying to have a laugh as their own life is not good.
You're not bad and there is nothing wrong with you. Do not harm yourself, ever.

If anything, you are a very fun-to-talk-with person.

Thank you