[Abtin]

Hello My Friends,
I should be so appreciated if you rescue me. I want to know what is my "Mental Disorder"?
Since my childhood I was the best one in my school, all of the time I was getting good marks and I was the first person in my school. This process continued till getting Diploma. After that when I started university courses I fell in love with one girl, she told me "I love you", but I couldn’t understand what does it mean? Loving was meaningless for me. Some months later she left me and I got So Sensitive emotions about loving, I could feel loving and be loved. But she had gone, at that time I was so thirsty of being loved. So I was getting thirstier about being loved. I tried another relationships and girlfriends, but I couldn’t get “Be Loved Feeling”. At university, my courses marks were getting down; I haven’t been the first one among my classmates. I was feeling that I am getting weaker and weaker. I lost my self-confidence. So far, whenever I have fallen in love with one girl, only I was begging her to tell me that she loves me. I am addicted getting this feeling beside another girl. I don’t know “why I feel comfortable when I am thinking about my calamity and humility.” I haven’t any motivation for life; I just love listening calm music like as Chris De Burgh and think about my grief. If I know what kind of “Mental Disorder” I have gotten, as soon as possible I’ll search about it and read any article for treating myself.
Meanwhile I am so interested in Psychcentral.com
Looking forward for your kind replies.
Thanks a lot in advance.
Best Wishes.

PS: I am 24 years old and at the moment I am conscript. My university field was civil engineering BS.

[elliemay]

FWIW, it don't think you have a disorder at all - in fact, I think most of what you describe is completely normal as we seek our way through life, looking for partners to share it with, and moving into ourselves.

Thinking about love and what it means and is so like an engineer! Get to the root of it, understand the "problem" find a solution! There is no solution to love! Love is not a problem! It is there, always will be there, you just have to be open to it.

It's the way you feel around certain people that really really matters and has value. It is nice if they feel that way too, but not necessarily the crux of the matter.

I really think you're completely "normal" just a little lonely. It'll be okay. You'll get through this time.

[dooples]

ah-ha! A broken heart after the fact.it sucks, it hurts, and the only thing I have found to heal the open wound is....time...yes I know its been said millions of times before, but oh so true....
Give yourself time to enjoy your surroundings, and reflect on you. But I think the real healer is to let yourself feel your pain. Acknowledge it, it happened. She is no longer emotionally attached to you, and the time will come when you understand that. The road is long, and very hard. Bruises will heal. but the emotional scars stay with us forever. If you learn from it, then your pain will not be in vain.

Always looking for PEACE