[and_im_still_here]

i dont really know whats wrong but i really feel like im just now living a normal life.
i get mad easily, and i cry a lot about simple things that make me feel angry or depressed. i dont like anybody seeing me cry because they ask whats wrong and i dont even know what i feel.
i dont like loud noises they make me really angry. i rather talk to myself then to anybody else because nobody seems to understand what i feel.
i feel like im being watched or like im in some kind of movie and everyone is just acting, this happens only sometimes.
i sometimes think im going crazy because i feel sad and i act happy or im happy but i act sad.
ive thought about suicide but im just not able to let go like that because i really believe in God.
im scared to die in pain i imagine so many ways to die when i feel in danger wich is most of the time.
im nervous all the time i feel tired like wanting to sleep all the time, i feel like i dont exist and sometimes i feel like i do.

im a total mess. although ive never had problems with my family like fights and stuff ive been really lonely.

[Perna]

I would call and make an appointment to talk to someone here: http://www.cade.org.mx/ see if they can help?

[Mylifeisdepressing]

It really sounds like you might have depression, I feel the same way and I am seeing a psychiatrist soon because I think I have depression. I think you should talk to a doctor about it, to see what is wrong and get help for it.

[wackywidow]

Originally Posted by and_im_still_here

i dont really know whats wrong but i really feel like im just now living a normal life.
i get mad easily, and i cry a lot about simple things that make me feel angry or depressed. i dont like anybody seeing me cry because they ask whats wrong and i dont even know what i feel.
i dont like loud noises they make me really angry. i rather talk to myself then to anybody else because nobody seems to understand what i feel.
i feel like im being watched or like im in some kind of movie and everyone is just acting, this happens only sometimes.
i sometimes think im going crazy because i feel sad and i act happy or im happy but i act sad.
ive thought about suicide but im just not able to let go like that because i really believe in God.
im scared to die in pain i imagine so many ways to die when i feel in danger wich is most of the time.
im nervous all the time i feel tired like wanting to sleep all the time, i feel like i dont exist and sometimes i feel like i do.

im a total mess. although ive never had problems with my family like fights and stuff ive been really lonely.

Sounds like you have a good understanding of the psychological problems you are facing. Now you need to find some help ... someone to talk to eyeball to eyeball ... someone you can dare to trust and knows what they are doing. Try your own mdoc if you must. Maybe if they would give you some medication it would help you sort everything else out a little better. Something has caused you to have a poor self image and you need to address that with professional help. Please keep us posted as we are all here for you as a support "group".