[sometimes]

Yeah so i got stressed tonight. I was looking at photos of my year level and i was like thinking who do i like out of these people? Cos i hated my 'friends' i HATED them, while i was at school and i wonder if i did it again, who i would be friends with. Definitely a different crowd. I almost miss them, some of the guys who were cool. So jovial sometimes.

So here's the little game i was playing. ok, it's pretty funny. why not laugh at me. I haven't had a boyfriend, so i'm like if i did school again, who would i like to go out with? But it gets me depressed cos what if it was just the wrong f-ing school for me and there was no-one there for me?

I'm really high.

*giggle*

(i've had WAAAYYY too much coffee!!!)

[sometimes]

I even wonder if i am bipolar, sometimes. But i naturally like a laugh and a tease.

Do any of you get natural 'highs'?

[SeptemberMorn]

Yeah, I get natural highs sometimes. Depends on who I'm with, sometimes I do it by myself.

I once had a friend who would smoke pot before we went grocery shopping and on Fri nights when our husbands worked all night. I didn't know this for a long, long time until one night, she had smoked before I got there and was pretty giddy. This is when she let it out. She said "I hate you! You don't have to smoke pot or drink to get high and giggly!!!" My jaw dropped to the floor. Thanks goodness I was sitting on the floor so it didn't hurt much. LOL When my kids were growing up, there were times we'd get almost unbearable! Sometimes we'd cook spaghetti noodles just to have a food fight! LOL I could tell things were getting out of hand when the husband would take a long walk. LOLOL

My friend now isn't very emotional. No ups, no downs, but I can get silly around her. Maybe it's her laughing and blushing that keeps me going. LOL I can tell when she's had enough because she stops looking at me or paying attention. GGRRRRRRRRRRRRRR Ah, well... I have my fun. hehehe