Do I want to hurt people?

My moods change uncontrollably quite a lot, and then I feel like I want to hurt people. It's like an itch that I have to scratch. It's like an impulse, especially when the voices tell me to do things. Such as touch the pan while it was on the stove. I HAD to do this, so I did (didn't burn too much). It's like right at that second I am not afraid and I just want to, I HAVE to. And then there's this voice in my head telling me to do things. Hit people, annoy people etc. It's scaring me. I have dreams of hurting people, and I hate it, because I'm NOT a bad person. But I don't know what's wrong with me. Can someone help? What could this be?

I have lots of dreams about hurting people myself, so you're not alone in that; I think it's normal to dream about hurting someone occasionally, especially if they've done something to you.

Hearing a voice in your head, no matter what it says, is not good, and you should seek help, ASAP especially because you are doing things uncontrollably, which could easily result in you or someone else being hurt no matter how nice a person you are.

Hiya,

I wanted to offer you support. I have been in the psychotic dysfunctional state before where I was extremely paranoid and acting bizarre, but thought it was normal. For instance, I used to carry around a million volt stun gun. The only time I would turn it off and put it away (i.e. not have it in my hand with my finger on the button) was AFTER I crossed the threshold and was inside a church. I ended up having a breakdown and luckily made it to the hospital in time. Twenty days of hospitalization later I was still having problems, but got a med combination that worked for that time. Looking back on that now, I wish I had sought help earlier.

I hope you seek help before this develops to a level that you cannot control and you harm yourself or others. If I can be of support to you please let me know.

Love and Hugs,
Tara

I've had periods where I feel a bit of an urge to harm someone. Not out of anger or vengeance. Not aggression. Not necessarily sadism. It's like a hunger... It's an ineffable feeling (yet all psychopaths seem to know exactly what I'm talking about). It's like standing atop a high place and getting an incredible urge to jump (not suicidal). I don't know exactly what it is. I have somewhat of an idea as to what triggers it. I don't know how to control it other than sheer power of will. So I don't have much advice to give... But at least you're not the only one.

Where'd you find a million volt stun gun?

Ebay my friend...ebay



Love and Hugs,
Tara

That can't be legal.

*Starts searching ebay...*

You're hilarious!! It was brand name Cheetah. My ex-husband bought it for me when we were still married because a sex offender who had served 25 years had been released early! had moved in to our complex. I could see his door from my door. Hence the paranoia set in and quickly.