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I thought for sure that I would have a BAD weekend. I actually planned on it--I was tired of not having the right support and skills for everything I think about and going on. I wanted to feel pain--to do something to myself. I didn't want to cut, but it did come to mind. Instead, I decided to make a reservation and get a hotel room for Saturady night and take a handful of OTC's for some, um, purging-type activity. I left my T voice mails prior, and in my final one I admitted that what I was going to do this weekend involved OTC's. I also mentioned that there will always be a need for people like him, he will always have a job, because people are nuts--we would rather use physical pain to distract and deal with something mental or emotional. I won't want to actually tell T exactly what kind of OTC product, but I will tell him what it was not. He does pretty good working around things, but still getting to the subject. I love him for that. It really makes it easier and gives me the chance to build up the ability to say certain things on my own. Anyway,k I feel pretty good today. I didn't let myself have a bad weekend despite what I did. I went to bed early and slept in, I did a little personal pampering. I actually feel like doing something responsible, like maybe finally getting the brakes looked at on my car! Hmm, maybe a car wash and oil change, too! I feel like leaving my T a thank you voice mail today, but I'm not sure what exactly for. Maybe just to let him know that I am ok? I will try to avoid that and give him "the day off"
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Inky, I am so damn proud of you I can't stand it. YOU GO, GIRL! And you make SURE you tell your T how you managed to cope responsibly. This is worth about a million billion WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOs!!!!!
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I'm so glad that you're ok. It's funny how awful we can feel one day and the next day seems a thousand times better!
I know on days when I've taken stuff and I pulled through the night, the next day always has seemed to be pretty good. Hang in there!
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Always you are in my heart! Keep going sweetie!
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