Just want to be happy again

I am thirteen. Depression is a disease and I definately think there were earlier signs of it in my life even though I was happy. When I was eleven I was diagnosed for anorexia. Since then I have made a fairly nice recovery, but this year I became really withdrawn. A few months back I started cutting myself, at first it felt good but now I feel like I am trappped in a haze of depression. I am trying to stop cutting because I know this is the real way to rehabilation. I generally cut because I feel like I need to make myself miserable. I also feel really guilty if I express my feelings. Not about depression exactly, but in school I hate it when I raise my hand. I am determined to be happy again and I am not going to give up until I get there

Its so good to see a positive outlook that you have =)

I'm also glad you've found PC, I hope it will help you reach that happiness. What have you been doing to get better? I'm assuming that you have a therapist/someone helping you with the anorexia - have they been any help with the cutting issue?

Just wanted to drop by here and give you some huge hugs!!! (((((((((((((((lightningscar))))))))))))) i also love that positive attitude

Good for you keep it up there is a brighter tomorrow!

((((Hugs)))))) welcome to pc! Do please see a therapist i suffered allot in my bteen years with depression, eating disorer. Still i am suffering with seeking help for myself im learning to cope with things, not easy at times. You will get lots of support on pc and know im here to talk to in pm.

Thank you so all so much for your sweet comments!!!
@ turquoisesea I have been handling the anorexia fairly well so I don't really see anybody for it anymore. I knowthat it will never really go away so I just fair with it the best I can. At the moment I think my parents would not be able the fact that I am cutting( although l have been able to stop nyself in the past few days). Their panic would probably just panic me. I have NO suicidal intentions whatsoever. If things do get really bad I know I will have to tell them.