[CastlesInTheAir]

I spend too many moments of my days wondering:

-Did I say that right?
-Does my hair look okay?
-is my make up right?
-how are they interpreting my body language and eye movement
-how about what I am wearing
-did anyone see me trip over that?
-or drop that?
-why is he looking at me like that?
-why did she say that?
-Why smile in my face then tear me down behind my back?
-am I good enough?
-Have I done enough?
-etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc.

I am not a celebrity, but thinking of the above list gives me insight of what it is like to be one.

We are not on stage. We do not do concerts, movies or TV shows, or pose for magazines. Yet, we look in the mirror as if we are about to go on stage. I always wonder from moment to moment, what is her/his “review” of me. Do I get cheers or jeers like in TV guide, do I make “ETs” worst dressed list? Do I matter? Am I interesting? It’s like a stage that you are in the middle of with a burning spotlight amplifying the sweat of anxiety. All you see is darkness and that bright hot light searing into you. The crowd, peering at you…..glaring…..waiting. They wait for your voice or what it is you do. Then afterwards, no matter what, those people will tear you down. They can even like you, and will still tear you down.
I see it, I hear it, and I feel it every day no matter where I sit for lunch or what group of people I talk to in the aisles at work. People just pick people apart; it does not matter, that’s just people, and even the people who are torn do the tearing. It is more fun to throw rocks through windows than put in a pane of glass I suppose.

Screw the stage. Screw that audience. I never understood how people could be so cruel. So screw the stage I am not paid to listen, respond, or care about the critics. However, I know one thing I refuse to be that audience as well, so I propose that I will only say positive things about people as often as I can. I also propose that if I hear someone say something negative about someone I will counter it with something positive. Positivity will rule the world SOMEDAY!

Anyone care to join me?

Sure I'll join you.

Great post...i'm in.