[Bathony]

I can't believe what is happening. I used to think people in pain would be supported- au contraire! I thought that every of my serious problems would make people show some ******* compassion- little did I know! Sexual abuse, physical abuse, parents' divorce, the imprisonment of my father, mistreatment in mental hospital, treating me unfairly, my niece, calling me a liar and attacking me- nothing is serious enough to get any support or compassion. Nothing means a thing. I'm not important to anyone, no matter what happens, it's always my fault, I'm to blame. No matter what people defend those who attack me. The mods find the most ridiculous excuse to kick me out. They say I'm paranoidal but I have dozens, hundreds of examples to prove that everyone's against me. Everyone's against me, no matter what I do and how I behave, whether I deserve it or not, always the same.

[pegasus]

Hello Bathony, welcome to Psych Central. I know it can feel like everyone is against you especially when you have been through so much. Family are often the ones that are the least supportive. Many members here do understand and you will be able to talk about your feelings without being judged here. Hugs

[advena]

Hello Bathony, I know what its like to feel hopeless, like nothing will change. For me, it helps to challenge these thoughts even though I get frustrated and angry sometimes when people tell me to do this. I hope you find the support you need here.