my husbands granded died

My husband grandad died yesterday in his sleep ...my husband got to go down to the funeral...but because of my cats and the fact that my husband dad is paying for him to come down i have to left on my own for 3 days and 2 nights ...me and my husband have never been apart longer than one night since we met each other I dont cope at the best of time with out my husband.
I have asked my sister to come and stay with me over the time my husband is gone but she said she is busy and that she cant stay over night ...am at my worse at night time especially with my voices ...i will have enough medication to do me for 3 days and 2 nights...but am worried what ill do if am really bad i cant leave the house without my husband and i dont trust my sister enough to go out with her on the buses.

Also am being spied on by the government Its not the abusers this time that doing it
Its different this time ...Have to watch what am saying ...they haven't done anything to the food or water but its only an matter of time before they do something like that...
Sorry i cant say any more than that ...have to be careful what am saying

Its kinda late here but i have to stay up for my prayer witch is at 2.50 am
then am going to bed ...well maybe i feel awake at the moment...maybe its better that i dont sleep at all then i can keep an eye out for spies...

Am sad that My husband grandad died he was a very nice man

Hi, I hope you are doing ok, You do have your cats with you that can keep you company while your husband is away. I hope you get some sleep, I don't think it is a good idea to not rest. Cats stay up at night they will keep you safe. I wish you well and so sorry to hear about your loss.

Thank you... my cats will look after me and i'll look after them.
I managed to get some sleep ...The spies came into the house last night and they interrogated me for hours...but i didnt give them anything ...they may come back tonight this time do something like water boarding on me
I have to be careful what i say here they are watching everything ...
I being very careful in what i eat ...they may have tampered with my food and water
have to be very careful

The spies come back , they asked questions and they drugged me
i feel really weird ...
My husband was in the other room when it happen he didnt hear what was going on because they drugged him too and he had his head phones on
They said they will be back and there going to stay until i give them the codes i have in my head
There watching right now
I have to be careful