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I know I shouldn't be *****ing and moaning....
Half the time I feel like I deserve to die because I'm an evil person who has evil thoughts. I can't explain my narcissism, but I try to keep it to myself. Sometimes I feel like I'm capable of love, but who knows? WHY DO HARD DRUGS MAKE ME FEEL NORMAL I can't handle my thoughts, the nights are just physically painful and I need to take nyquil because I drink every night. I'm tired of only being able to feel it sometimes when I'm on drugs. The last time I felt good I was lying with a nice girl...but I don't think I'll have that oppurtunity again. |
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A lot of times I feel like a pathological evil person, and the problem narcissists is that we can't really kill ourselves....
Last edited by FooZe; May 01, 2012 at 02:41 AM. Reason: moved to previous thread (and added trigger icon) |
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I'm sick and tired of only being able to feel things sometimes. I can't explain the feeling when you put an album on while screwed up on Xanax/Klonopin.....ALL YOU FEEL IS THE MUSIC NO STUPID NOISE IN YOUR HEAD
Last edited by FooZe; May 01, 2012 at 02:48 AM. Reason: moved to previous thread |
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***** and moan all you want. It's not some kind of right you have to earn. If it seems to help and it doesn't hurt anyone, I say go for it.
You do not deserve to die. Everyone has "evil" thoughts, but few people have the courage to admit it. You know all those movies they show where the person has the courage to do the right thing in the face of violent opposition? Those are our ideals. They are not reality. The truth of the matter is that kindness and selflessness do not come naturally. That's why they are such valuable things when we find them. Being good is about ignoring evil impulses and doing what we believe is right. I don't have all the answers. If I did, I probably wouldn't be here on a site about mental health... It sounds to me like you need to talk to a therapist or even a good friend or minister and learn to forgive yourself for your faults. It isn't an easy thing, and it's nearly impossible to do alone. For what it's worth, that's what I think. If you want to rant more, you can PM me. I know I'm not a terrific person, and I'm very young, but I do love to talk ![]() I hope you feel better soon! Best of wishes, Morghana |
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Sorry, I thought the posts weren't going through, so I kept posting again and again. I'm sorry!
Last edited by FooZe; May 02, 2012 at 02:35 AM. Reason: (no text changes, just moved to previous thread) |
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I agree with that. Brontoset you are not your thoughts and they do not define you.
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