[capricorn57]

Going out i can get strange looks of mocking amusement. I am all too aware of it . It can make me feel very self conscious ie am i making strange expressions? walking funny? exhibiting odd mannerisms?


I prefer to go out as early as possible if i can ,when there is less people about.

[Sapphire2012]

Try not to worry too much about what other ppl are thinking that will only increase your stress. You have a right to go out to the shops and do the things you need to do as much as anybody else. If people do want to look that is their issue to deal with.

Originally Posted by capricorn57

Going out i can get strange looks of mocking amusement. I am all too aware of it . It can make me feel very self conscious ie am i making strange expressions? walking funny? exhibiting odd mannerisms?


I prefer to go out as early as possible if i can ,when there is less people about.

You may be somewhat introverted, and that is O.k.
Most people are just going about their own lives.
self-awareness is a gift.

When you look in the mirror, what do you see? I dress conservatively so that I don't stand out but sometimes I do get those mocking looks. I know a lot of the time it has to do with the expression on my face. Of course, there are times when I look with mock amusement at others, too! Next time someone looks at you with mock amusement (it may have nothing to do with you; they may be thinking of something else), you might try asking them, "something wrong with how I look?" It may put your mind at ease.

HeyCapricorn57 I was drawn to the thread title and needed to check it out. From your profile it seems we may have some things in common with that. I'm a diagnosed avoidant. Before I knew that, things were progressing slowly over the years until the depression resulting from it forced me to seek pro help. Only after quitting my job and spending 3 months in bed. It was either check out the possibility that I had something deeply mental going on or give up and die. That decision took 3 months and not many close to me knew what was going on. Well no-one really. I had been almost unconsciously isolating myself for a couple of years. When I quit my job I had quit all my friends and family or at least effectively hid and avoided them all.

Don't mean to go on about me Capricorn but I am willing to talk about this stuff with you and it's insidious behaviors along with possible copings strats and related such and so. Some of what you've mentioned is like seeing things in a mirror. I go out and feel most comfortable at night. I hate to admit that but that's true. I prefer winters. I prefer solitude. Not because I like it. Because my anxieties are reduced. Things are still rough but they've also improved. But they need to improve a lot yet. If you have any questions here or in a PM don't hesitate.