[DayleJasmine]

Hello, im new to the forum.
I have ALOT of problems but one i wish to discuss at the moment is the thing what is racing round my mind 24/7 every second.. Its depressing me.

4months ago i assaulted a male. In honesty it was self defence. But in the eyes of the law, well the law is not on my side. i have posotives in this problem but alot of negatives. I belive i am going to prison. Ihave a previous with assault due to anger issues, drugs, alcohol and everyday life. I am seriously considering pleading by the mental health act..

Do you think it is a good idea as i have recognised the signs of bipolar in myself i have done self tests and alot of research. Should i take this as an opertunity to get professional help? bear in mind i have a son and a job and a home and a partner. would i be throwing away my hard work or would it be the right thing?
I just feel helpless and lost im not getting any support whatsoever of anyone. My problems seem a burden to everyone i feel like im the problem so i dont bother opening up to close ones, i have learnt they can hurt you.. tug on your heart strings and trample all over your emotions, control you ( which is another issue) im trapped in everything in my life and everything in it. I feel like im missing out on life. I dont leave the flat only if nesacery.

Just so confused.

[mazing]

Sorry to hear you are struggling so much at the moment. I would suggest that you do seek out help if possible. A professional should be able to help look at your symptoms, make an official diagnosis if necessary and help you work through some of the things you are struggling with, including your anger.

It is great that you are concerned for the welfare of your partner and son, but I personally beleive that the best thing you can do for them is to also look after yourself so you can always be there for them in the future.