[Blue Heart]

Since I have returned to college I seem to have become a different person and I am finding it hard to come to terms with this. Before I was diagnosed I was a lot happier and more sociable (although I suspect some of that was the bipolar). Now I have become extremely meek and óver polite' to the extent that people who have only known my a week are saying that I need to be more aggressive. I have no idea why I have completely changed. I was never like this even when I was a child. I just seem to have lost all of my personalty. Plus, the social dynamics at college have changed and the people who I once hanged out with are now, more or less, doing their own thing and I do not fit in. I honestly do not know what to do.

[Leed]

I have a feeling you're putting TOO MUCH importance on your diagnosis. Forget it! What does it mean anyway? It's just a bunch of words. You are NOT any different NOW than you were before you got the diagnosis, are you? NO. So just forget the fact that you got diagnosed. Who cares anyway?

Don't change the way you act. I have a feeling you have -- for some reason, you think that by being diagnosed, you're supposed to ACT more like your diagnosis, and you AREN'T supposed to. You're supposed to act like YOU. A diagnosis doesn't' mean a darn thing. Sometimes the diagnosis is wrong anyway!

So forget it. Just be yoursellf, ok? That's why people liked you in the first place. Be you and be happy. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee

[CastlesInTheAir]

Originally Posted by Blue Heart

. I just seem to have lost all of my personalty.

I can really relate to this statement. I used to be a social butterfly, had no problem socializing, then it was like I woke up one day and disappeared. Just a body moving around, that is what I feel like lately. But my issues seem to stem from 3 psychotic episodes I have had in the past three years, I swear everytime it happend I lost a part of myself. Also, I have gotten so caught up in negative thoughts that its hole I need to dig myself out of. Force yourself into new things, rediscover yourself....

[beauflow]

Now I have become extremely meek and óver polite' to the extent that people who have only known my a week are saying that I need to be more aggressive.

Specifically with this passage= I get this way at times but I think it is due to a trigger with me--

I like what Leed and Triciadrich have mentioned--

Sometimes putting so much on a DX can be damaging.

And Finding yourself more is always helpful

but sending you good thoughts

[wing]

I think there is a shock phase to getting a bipolar diagnosis. I questioned every little part of my personality, "is this the BP? Or is this the real me?" I have come to terms with the fact that BP is just a part of the "whole"me, and don't analyze anymore. I just relax, be myself and not worry about BP impacting anything. Part of that includes examining what people say about me, but not taking it as truth all the time.