i didn't know where to put this.

hello?:P
its getting worse..but i have to go to some place in a city near me.
god..what if my issue doesn't get better..

You are stilll making it. You HAVE to get to the place that will help you. Is there anything that calms your anxiety you could do in the meantime? Try to lower your stress level. Can you just pick up and go to the place? They will help to get better and will be there with u. There are people that understand it better there probably. If you need to, is there someone you can ask to help u get there? When are you going? Think of the place as medicine. So glad you checked in on here.

its been like..a month..
since i last came on here..
i haven't been to that place that'll help me because i have no time what with school and because i don't know how to do anything right, which is creepy for an 18 year old male.
umm.. well, i probably wouldn't even know how to enter the bloody building.
my problems haven't gone away, but i believe that i have some sort of OCD.
im scared of losing myself, yet i have nothing i can do..im so bloody useless, and im 18, so again..thats pretty creepy that an ADULT like me doesn't know how to do anything.
then again, i've been calling alot of the stuff i do pretty creepy recently..
i like playing my super nintendo? thats creepy, why does an adult play a video game system from the 90s???
i like to draw, and most people say my drawings are cute? well thats creepy. an 18 year old drawing cute stuff like the sun and a moon over a field of candy canes??? Freaking creepy.
I read comics about varying topics? thats creepy, since im 18, i shouldn't be reading comics, i should be writing documents for a business like a regular adult should, otherwise im not normal.
everything is going wrong, and i hope to god that something gets better, otherwise i might need a bridge:/