I find suspicion, out of anyone, I usually think, " what if my family is trying to poison me?" , but I'm sure I proceed to eat the food they made and turned out to be alright. Then I say "What if this person created a new kind of disease like AIDS and is trying to infect me with it?" And along with the bad luck. I feel like I have bad luck each time I do certain things. Like downloading illegal programs, I get bad luck until i delete it, basically things I do that falls in to the superstition policy gives me bad luck. Why is this so?

This has been going on very a rough 7 years. Im only 14.

Thanks Contrast, but its quite strange. Would Bad Luck be real? Or would it be just a thought?

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Originally Posted by dudemanter

I find suspicion, out of anyone, I usually think, " what if my family is trying to poison me?" , but I'm sure I proceed to eat the food they made and turned out to be alright. Then I say "What if this person created a new kind of disease like AIDS and is trying to infect me with it?" And along with the bad luck. I feel like I have bad luck each time I do certain things. Like downloading illegal programs, I get bad luck until i delete it, basically things I do that falls in to the superstition policy gives me bad luck. Why is this so?

I don't recommend downloading illegal stuff. The kind of intrusive thoughts you are talking about should be discussed with your doctor. Please tell your parent(s) about this.