[prythrob]

Every since I was a small child I have longed to be included as part of the laundry of a woman or women. I have always been fascinated to learn what the experience of being in a washing machine/wash tub, dried and being pressed would be like, and to be treated just like any other item of laundry.

I suppose you could call it an extreme laundry fetish?

For most of my life this has remained a dormant fantasy, but in the last three months I have become obsessed with getting this fantasy realised to the point were it is taking over my life!!

I realise what the most likely outcome of making this fantasy a reality would be but I am still determined to make this fantasy a real regardless of the outcome.

This is obviously a sign that something is wrong, I'm aware of that - but I don't know what exactly and I don't know how I can control this obsession!!

Any of you out there got any ideas??

[Perna]

I'd look at what else is going on in your life, treat the fantasy as if it were a dream? What happened 3 months ago to escalate the fantasy thinking instead of whatever it was being dealt with? Look also at clean/dirty and metaphors, "tumble" in the dryer (instead of the "sack") comes to mind? Someone else, one's mother being in charge of one and telling one what to do so we didn't have to think; being clean and fresh and neat, without wrinkles are all positive/pleasant thoughts. I enjoy the Febreze commercial where the animals get put away and the floor sprayed and she turns around and they're all out again, nose pressed to the floor There are some good smells and the warmth of freshly dried towels, etc.; what's not to like?

You are in charge of what you choose to think about. If you want to concentrate on looking at and working with your life as it actually is, you can; not easy if you have spent a lot of time thinking about a fantasy instead but still doable.

[ECHOES]

It sounds to me like a wish to be very well taken care of

[prythrob]

Thank you both for you sensitive answers. I was a bit anxious about posting on the forum as I know it's a bit 'unusual' and was concerned about the type of response I would get. I haven't had very supportive comment on other forums I have posted on in the last few months.

What happened three months ago to awaken this fantasy? Well surprising nothing that dramatic. I just happened to read a long detailed post on a forum from a guy with a similar fantasy, something I'd never come across before. He 'claimed' to have realised him fantasy with the help of his girlfriend. Now I'm not naive enough to believe everything I read on the net, but just the possibility was enough of trigger.

I have considered in the past some of the issues you have raised in your replies about wanting to be cared for, neat and tidy and I have even considered the possibly that I may be trying to cast off responsibility for my life by being some sort of inanimate thing to be looked after. However none of these issues would have been present when I was a very young child when the fantasy started so I have tended to dismiss them.

I know there are many people on site and in the real world with much more serious problems than a runaway fantasy but I concerned by the disruption it is causing to my 'normal' life, work and rest. I take your point Perna that I am in charge of what I think of but its getting increasingly difficult to think of anything else.

So I will thank you once again for you replies and sign off....

[prythrob]

Since I posted the initial post things have unfortunately continued to deteriorate. So a bit lost at the moment..