[hiddeng3nius]

I'm not even sure if this is the right section. I might even be wasting my time doing this. I don't know how much fight I have left in me. I know EVERYONE is probably going through this but I honestly feel like life is working against me. As soon as I dare to cheer myself up with something, some news or some event comes up and takes that away from me. Each time I try to see things my way life ABSOLUTELY doesn't want me to have any of it. I know I sound like everyone but it's ringing too true nowadays.

And I have no one. I don't have any friends. I don't have reliable family. No mentor to take me under his/her wing. I can't seem to catch a break with finding work and each time someone opens their doors for me, they pull the rug underneath me. I'm tired of not having anyone to reach out to me. I hate that I can only find sympathy online. I hate that seeking help cost an arm and a leg with so called professionals deeming how much they can and can't help. At this point I need resolution. Maybe I should just be a wandering nomad and wait for my end to come -lord knows I don't have the strength to do it myself.

[roads]

Originally Posted by hiddeng3nius

I'm not even sure if this is the right section. I might even be wasting my time doing this. I don't know how much fight I have
left in me.
Maybe fighting isn't what you need to be doing. The world's a mess & so is your family situation--but what's to fight about, and whom? To what good, at this point?
I know EVERYONE is probably going through this but I honestly feel like life is working against me. As soon as I dare to cheer myself up with something, some news or some event comes up and takes that away from me. Each time I try to see things my way life ABSOLUTELY doesn't want me to have any of it. I know I sound like everyone but it's ringing too true nowadays.
It's not a hex & it's not against you--it is pretty much everyone in your generation and socio-economic group. This isn't the future their parents expected for them.

And I have no one. I don't have any friends. I don't have reliable family. No mentor to take me under his/her wing. I can't seem to catch a break with finding work and each time someone opens their doors for me, they pull the rug underneath me. I'm tired of not having anyone to reach out to me. I hate that I can only find sympathy online. I hate that seeking help cost an arm and a leg with so called professionals deeming how much they can and can't help. At this point I need resolution. Maybe I should just be a wandering nomad and wait for my end to come -lord knows I don't have the strength to do it myself.

You're aware of the failure of this reality to live up to your ideals, as you put it. Your parents see that they didn't prepare you for the world we're living in ... but they aren't prepared for it, either. They can't retire comfortably. Their children, many of them, are still unsettled and unhappy.
Nothing has turned out right today for anyone--except the billionaires. The rest of us are trying to figure out where things went wrong and how to fix it.
There's no one to fight or blame. Each of us needs to figure our own path forward as best we can. I'm 66, and all I've saved for retirement is now quickly going into paying basic bills--mostly medical. So ... I don't retire. It starts there.
Each person re-decides these things.
I work out of my gratitudes. When I reached 66 and could have taken retirement, I was so grateful to have a job that didn't have a Manditory Retirement Age that my first decision was based on the gratitude: I decided to continue working. I was healthy, good at what I did. And enjoyed it.
Can you see the pattern? Everything I was grateful for showed me where my strengths and blessings were. You can do that. No matter what you have (& in spite of what you don't have)--if you use your resources ingeniously, you will come out on top of most people who sit around waiting for someone to come along and help them.
Give it some thought. No life is easy, it depends a lot on how late you plan to wait to start digging.

Roadie

[NoCake]

Yeah I had the same problem. I had to teach myself a whole lot of stuff... I potty trained myself even. Ok not really... But a lot of things can be learned on the internet anyway. A lot of guys nowadays learn how to tie a tie with youtube you know. Now some things - like flying a 747 - probably can't be learned this way so discretion is advised.

I don't talk much with my family as we don't have much in common and I don't see my friends much anymore either... That is pretty rough to deal with but life goes on. I think the important thing is to find happiness in yourself and not necessarily in the external. Granted, flying a 747 with all of your friends watching you is very awesome but you should try and find what makes you and only you happy.

[hiddeng3nius]

But what do I do here? I'm mentally burned out from figuring out what I want out of life and burned out with applying for work. Honestly, I wish I knew where there are secret opportunities. I'd move if I have to. I just need peace.

I understand that I'm not the only one who feel into this predicament but what do I do? What do those people do (those of us in my generational gap and socio-economic status)? I honestly feel like a headless chicken.

[thickntired]

Maybe look around online for a job that you find rewarding, interesting etc. It sounds to me like you're restless for the truth or meaning of life. If you can ever afford to - travel. Or move abroad and teach English

Peace & Hugs,

TnT

[hiddeng3nius]

@thickntired: I'm up to my neck with looking online for rewarding/interesting jobs or any job for that manner. Trust me, I would have been traveling if I was in the financial position to do so and I don't think I'm the teaching type. Thanks for your suggestions though.

[whoswho]

Hi hiddeng3nius,

I don't have much to say, because honestly you've probably thought about it so much and have thought about any suggestion I could possibly give 100 times over... I had the same problem finding work; I'd clean the bathroom stalls at McDonalds and be grateful for the privilege. Although why wouldn't you be the "teaching type"? It's certainly better than nothing, and I'm actually doing something similar because I couldn't find work and also couldn't stand living with my parents anymore and just generally being a complete waste of space. And it was actually faster to get into what I'm doing now than to find a "real" job, but once I go home then I'll be in the same stupid boat I was in before... It's something to put on a resume though, right?

Just keep hanging in there. It's tough. You're doing great so far. It just sucks and it's not because of anything you've done. I hope things get better for you.

[Inedible]

I know of someone who is good at removing blockages,

http://www.beyond-within.com/healing.htm

She has done good work for me and for a couple other people I know. If I thought I had a hex on me I'd go to her first.