[penguinsing]

I don't know why I am so mad.

I was looking for something (a stack of memo paper) everywhere. I looked into my bag, the living room, my bed. And I went into the car, even check under the car sit. Why is it not there ? **I grew angrier and angrier.** I checked the ground around my parking lot, found nothing too.

Then I see the memo paper on the shelf. I putted them on the shelf.

I feel so mad, so mad. I feel like why even the memo paper had to go against me. (of course i know is not, memo paper is a dead object)

I don't know if I feel angry easily if somethings is not right. But the memo paper was suppose to be part of my self therapy. Now I am so upset I don't want to touch it, I feel like I want to throw it into the garbage can.

** may be cause I am already facing OCD difficulties and the memo paper is self therapy, and I feel like why even I want to do this mini task, thing has to go wrong, and go against me

[IowaFarmGal]

Hi penguinsing! I know I get pretty frantic if I can't remember where I put something I need. My inability to remember scares me sometimes, why can't I get my brain to work right? I guess for me it's frustrated, not angry exactly. They feel pretty close as emotions though. Then I start to beat on myself. Maybe it is sort of like anger. Not sure why that is. Maybe someone else knows.

[ECHOES]

It sounds like you are very hard on yourself.
It is frustrating to not be able to find something we want to find, but you didn't hide it from yourself, or throw it away, you just forgot where you put it.

If you are like me, you put it on the shelf thinking that it was just the right place for it!