[henrydavidtherobot]

I have been experiencing symptoms of cyclothymia for about 2-3 years now. I have not been diagnosed, but I struggle with what I believe to be hypomania, impulsivity, grandiosity, poor concentration on multiple tasks, severe anxiety, major depressive episodes, and pressured speech. It has caused me trouble with relationships, work, and my safety.

I'm leaving for Europe for a month in a week. I haven't been nervous at all, but now I'm scared to have a hypomanic episode overseas. What will people think of me if I do? Will I be safe if I get too drunk or promiscuous? I'll have people there from my university who I can reflect poorly on, but no friends there to count on.

Is there any advice for recognizing the onset of an episode? I'm definitely going to watch my alcohol intake and avoid traveling alone. I may just be freaking out now because I'm awaiting my STI results tomorrow (due to an impulsive episode), so maybe I'm more anxious about that now due to the anxiety I feel now, but I could use some words of wisdom. Thanks in advance!

Also, I have been diagnosed with GAD, Panic, Depression, and PMDD. Idk if that helps. Thanks!

[Travelinglady]

Are you seeing a psychiatrist or therapist? I suggest you talk to one or both of them about this issue. I really think you need to strongly consider getting an official diagnosis and start treatment. I am concerned, like you are, that things could get out of hand. You could escalate into a full-blown manic state, in my opinion.

I would think it would be crucial to make sure to have plenty of any meds for your ailments with you as well.

[henrydavidtherobot]

My T keeps telling me that nothing is wrong and that my moods will even out with age. I was on Xanax for my panic, but the P denied me a script because I admitted to socially drinking. The visit was expensive and I can't afford to go back I'm on my own here, I guess.