[Grey Matter]

I want to start this post by saying I am not at all actively suicidal. I have no plans to harm myself or anyone else. My problem, intrusive thoughts. I have OCD that is mostly though related. It has been haunting me for over a week. I was taken off of my zoloft before having the chance to taper off. I have intrusive thoughts that tell me I am better off dead, which leads me to physical compulsions (knocking four times on solid surfaces) etc. It is taking it's toll on me. I don't know if it's just the intrusive thoughts, or if it is from, or a combination, of withdrawals.

Would me going to the ER be completely useless? Does this seem like something that will be written off, or something that would be considered suicidal thoughts even though they are intrusive? I am just really confused.

[redbandit]

I know how it feels to go off a med cold turkey its really not a good idea. It sounds like you're having side effects from that. Do you have anyone to talk to about this? I hope you feel better, I know how awful it can be.

[Grey Matter]

I have my T, but she is the one who stopped the meds on me with no warning. I have an appointment with her tomorrow, but I know if I bring this up I am either going to be misunderstood and be taken out of the office in handcuffs going straight to the hospital, or she will shrug me off and offer no support. It's a lose lose really. I can only hope she gives me my meds back. I can't take these thoughts anymore. They're consuming me.