[dumburn]

So the latest letter from the psychiatrist has been sitting unopened for a few weeks but i figured i should have a look as my next appointment is probably soon so I guess i should know when and where to turn up.

of course this isn't actually a letter to me, it's a letter to my gp, I just get a copy, so i can at least smile to myself when i read the line "I have arranged a further meeting with dumburn on the....blah blah blah"

Who did you arrange this meeting with, your secretary, co-workers some higher power us mere mortals have nothing to do with?? not me that's for sure, I could have planned to leave the country and do fun things for all you know (thankfully I haven't - i'm quite boring and the thought of doing fun things scares me)
So how about asking me when is good?? I know your usually booked up about 8 weeks in advance so trying to rearrange once i get the appointment in the mails means 16 weeks between appointments.
It was a bloody nightmare last time sorting out time off work to get to you,

well I got quite worked up about that - the least annoying line in that letter

So i calm down a little and look at the rest, quickly bypassing the yucky stuff we talked about last time we met

So I've skipped that at go to his thoughts/recommendations/prophecies
And he's had meetings about me and apparently..
I have been assigned a care co-coordinator
I will be receiving my PCTs locally adapted version of cbt/dbt
and in the future I will need more formal psychoanalytical therapy.

So a care coordinator, I've probably had one of those in the past but then i had lots of people working with me in the past, the name suggests this is going to be the case again, thanks for the heads up mate!

I will be receiving therapy and will need even more in the future??? I did therapy to death when i was younger, for several months it was on 3 times a week.
I have spent over 6 years building a whole new life for my self and silly old me thought it was working quite well. So what would be the point of doing therapy again now all these years on


Oh, you arsehole why couldn't you have stuck to the plan.
One year ago I was quite happily plodding along with a dull but satisfactory life with a plan to come off all the meds.
The two I saw before you came along were happy with that plan and got me through it.
By the time you got to me your job was supposed to be to say "Goodbye and good luck"
What have I said/done that make you see me so differently to the 3 other medical professionals I saw in the 10 months before you came along
Why and how have you managed to get right under my skin and annoy me so much

PLEASE TALK TO ME EXPLAIN TO ME, I don't know if you think I'm too dumb to understand, or if it's some other reason.
But if you need to talk about me, I reckon you need to talk to me also

[kaliope]

It must be really frustrating to have your whole game plan changed on you without your consent. I hate the ways drs don't feel they have to explain anything yet it is part of their ethics to let the patient be part of creating their care plan. so many forget this. I wonder why. perhaps you can bring it up and your next appt. good luck.

[dumburn]

Maybe it's hard not just because everything seems to have done a full 180 without me even noticing
But because its all written in the third person, I wonder if part of my brain can't accept that all the "She... blah blah blah" is actually about me, It feels like none of this information isn't meant for me to see but then why send it to me?

Gah! Im in full rambling mode tonight, going to bed to sleep on it all

[(JD)]

Well... at your next meeting DO share how this all felt like the first time you've heard it and wished he had discussed it all beforehand with you. Do be prepared that he did discuss it with you and perhaps, according to your letter with the whole plan he's laid out, you blocked it out because you are very unhappy about the whole thing?

But yeah, ask about it.

[dumburn]

Originally Posted by (JD)

.. Do be prepared that he did discuss it with you and perhaps, according to your letter with the whole plan he's laid out, you blocked it out because you are very unhappy about the whole thing?

But yeah, ask about it.

hmmmm, i guess you could be right.
After he went way off plan at our first meeting by throwing a new diagnosis at me (which i definitely first heard about by way of a copy of the letter he sent to my gp) I have been going in with my stubborn head on so maybe I have been unable to be receptive to what he says.

This whole situation seems to be causing me more problems than i started this current saga with (that number was almost 0! or so i thought)

I will try to ask about it, I do want to and I do go in mad and determined to say exactly what i'm thinking but then as soon as i sit down I turn in to a tiny timid thing .
and then when i leave i'm like GAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

By the way, you guys are are very wise. I wasn't really expecting any responses but thankyou!