was it my fault I was so weak?

When I was younger, literally anything said to me made me cry. But no matter how my parents tried reassuring me...no matter how I tried changing my way of thinking, to toughen myself up, I just couldn't help grtting hurt. And that was the main source of my childhood trauma.

I remember how my brother used to call me things like stupid, dumb, etc when I was eight. I was so hurt that I soon took everything he said as a personal attack.

Bear in mind that when I was younger, my sensitivity and ability to take jokes were not helped by my tourette.

I think some of us are just born more sensitive than others. All babies are different, it's not a surprise they grow into different individuals. It makes it really hard when you are teased for your personality. It leaves scars we have to deal with later in life. Hope you are getting counseling to help you get over those scars.

No, it isn't your fault. Unfortunately society doesn't really appreciate us and we end up traumatized by insults that wouldn't bother approximately 68% of the population.

Tourette's... yeah, even I don't understand it.

Not your fault. It would seem that your brother teased you more than once because he realized that it hurt you. If it didn't bother you, then he wouldn't have done it again. It was his (or anyone else who teased you) fault that he/they liked to get a rise out of you.

It sounds like the main source of your childhood trauma was indeed being traumatized. Was your family your "soft place to land", as DR Phil calls it? Its okay if a brother teases you SOME of the time. But if its ALL of the time, and there is no kindness, no inclusion, as there was not with my brother, then no relationship is ever built. He says to me now, "but im your BROTHER!" And honestly, i dont know what that means. We dont really have a shared history. Teasing, scaring, insulting, assaulting isnt sharing. I felt like they were just waiting to be rid of me. Its hard to face, but its harder not to face it.

Its very painful. Reality is, this world is a tough place to be for such sensitive person. You need some company that understand you properly.

The best way I have found to "toughen" myself up is to accept myself. So you cry when you are hurt/upset? Start from there with acceptance and comfort yourself rather than trying so hard to change and criticize yourself? Yourself may be trying to get your attention and when it does, it will know you are there and it does not have to feel so hurt and alone. It is always easier for me to take criticism or another person's ugly words if I have a friend with me. Be your own friend and mean-spirited people making fun of you won't bother you as badly.