[Radio_Dawn]

Since about the end of 2002 or early 2003 I've noticed my thoughts being "broadcasted". In the beginning I thought I was going crazy/mad and blew it off. But more and more people would casually mention to me what I was doing - but how could they know I was alone at the time yet they knew.

I decided to test out my thought broadcasting by trying different things when I was alone to "get their goat" then see if they would mention what I was doing -- sure enough it worked! Others would let it slip or casually mention what I was doing....

More testing!!! I decided to get them angry with just my thoughts! It's time to see if I could get others mad at me because of what I was thinking. Yes it works!! I can get others really pissed at me by me just thinking bad thoughts about them or bad things I can do to them. Then they can't tell me why they "suddenly" and without reason tell me why they are angry at me. They have to pretend they are not mad.

Yes I know my thoughts ARE being broadcasted!!

In February of this year I became very angry about my thoughts being broadcasted... I went to the emergency room over it. I was admitted. The doctor diagnosed me with psychosis and severe depression. After about 2 days of being in the hospital the doctor asked me if I still think my thought my thoughts were being broadcasted - I (sorta) lied and said "NO I don't think my thoughts are being broadcasted anymore" - just so I can get out to see my two cats that are home alone and I hated the hospital anyway!

I say (sorta) lied because I don't think my thoughts are being broadcasted -- I KNOW my thoughts are being broadcasted to others.

I took myself off the medications because that does not work for me.

Well anyway, while in the hospital I was told I should get my disability started. I'm applying for it.

This thought broadcasting has ruined my life. I cannot enter into a relationship because I've tried that and it ruins my relationship. I cannot work because I cannot be hired this way - it causes problems with others.

I don't know what else to do except find a no pay till win lawyer that will take my case.

Any suggestions (outside of medication) will be appreciated.

[ArthurDent]

I don't have any suggestions...sorry. I just wanted to say that your idea of "testing" it was absolutely brilliant!

[JadeAmethyst]

You may be onto some real insight on your own behalf, that and learning about your own way of being and seeing through your life lenses and openings. This might be an opening for you to explore and enjoy. See what you can befriend in this thought broadcasting.

good luck and good health, you are on your way, with meds or not, you know what's best for you. IMO

Jade

Hi, I'm going to be very honest. Your thought broadcasting sounds like a psychotic delusion. That the thought b-casting keeps you from having relationships is a red flag...I really believe you need to be on meds, at least for a few months to see if and how your life changes.

[monkeybrains21]

If u can really broadcast y not broadcast good feelings to influence others to give u a job? If u can cause other to be upset and angry at u then the opposite must be true. Newtons laws equal and opposite.

[onionknight]

Have you seen a therapist since leaving the hospital? Maybe explored in therapy how you interact with others and how can learn to cope with this thing that is happening to you so you don't end up avoiding all people. Alienation from others will make you feel worse.

I've recently encountered the same problem all of a sudden. At first I thought that maybe my body language was giving me away and people were just having lucky guesses, but without even looking at me, people can tell what I'm thinking. It's terrifying and I don't feel comfortable around people anymore. It's not nearly as potent as your broadcasting, but I can understand to a certain extent how it must feel. It feels like you're not safe anywhere, not even in your own head. If I feel like my thoughts are being read, I just shout a bunch of garbage in my mind. I don't know if it works, but it makes me feel safer.

People who are experiencing thought broadcasting, please, please talk to your p-docs. You're suffering with a delusion that is treatable with medication. At least give meds a try...you can always decide not to be on them, but give peace of mind a chance.

With all due respect, I wouldn't trust most pdocs enough to give them that kind of ammunition—er, I mean information. And I've been taking their poison all along. Anti-psychotics may be helpful for the worst of it, but the problem is that pdocs won't take you off of them after you get better and don't need them anymore! I would be fine if I could trust that I'd only be on something a few months, but the only reason I'm not on the other anti-psychotic anymore was that I was abusing it and taking way too much in order to knock myself out. And since my pdoc won't even listen to me or how I feel/what I want, I don't really want to give her a reason to not let me go off of ineffective medication safely and keep prescribing more and more medication or locking me up.

So, as an addendum to the above, try medication only if you can find a doctor that will take you off of it when you don't need it anymore. Good luck with that. Doctors aren't too keen on putting themselves out of business.

[Hellion]

If you think good thoughts about people, do you find that they don't end up getting mad at you? I can see how that sort of thing could be quite annoying and interfere with life. It does kind of sound like sort of psychosis related stuff...but I don't want to write it off as being just that as I have had some strange sorts of things happen with me which where not to do with any of my mental problems. For instance I can feel vibes from people, if someone silently approaches me from behind and I don't hear them at all I can feel who it is without looking....except my brother sometimes masks his vibes and so he can come up on me without me knowing till I see or hear him and yes he is aware he does that.

Sometimes it adds stress though because if I am in say a store or somewhere and a lot of drama or a bad situation breaks out I pick up on the negative vibes and it can be very overwhelming and upsetting. So I do believe sometimes people have sort of weird sometimes annoying abilities which are not to do with symptoms of a mental condition.

Applying for disability is probably a good idea, but yes when dealing with mental health professionals you are entitled to be respected as a human being...so while many can be helpful some aren't and so its important to always be aware of your rights so if they are violated you can take legal action and stuff. First time I was in a psych ward it initially kept me safe from attempting suicide but I started really hating it and so even when I was still feeling like perhaps not entirely ready to go home I said I was after 5 days and pushed for getting out....I thought I'd totally lose my mind if I stayed there any longer partially because there was no supervised outside walks or anything of any kind and I cannot stand being inside for days on end.

Sorry i don't have a lot of advice of what to do...but having a good therapist can be helpful to help work through issues and frusterations. I also have not had much luck with meds aside trazodone for when I can't sleep and my valium for anxiety are fairly helpful though not entirely without side effects but those are as needed not taken on a daily basis.