[Thelonelyboy123]

Before i start I would like to introduce myself, my name is Alex and I am in the age of between 16

As an individual i feel disconnected from people around me and my friends.I feel as if i cant really connect to anyone, i can still make friends but I always find myself not connecting to them. Every time i hang out with my friends i dont really feel any emotions of bonding emotions. Even with my own parents (my mom i dont have a dad who loves me) i dont feel love or affection for her, shes just like another girl, although i do feel a little love for her i just still feel like i trully love her. I never hug her and i feel really weird when i am hugged by her or anyone else. I just dont like the idea of hugs, well at least that's what i think. I was hugged yesterday from my family members and did not feel any emotions from it, i did not hug back of coarse, it was an awkward situation.

On the other hand i am an individual who strives for success, i have traits of a narcissist since i always want to be the best, better than anyone. I only care for myself and not really anyone else. I dont feel empathy for others and if i do its rare and last only a few seconds. I am a quite person, but not shy! as i believe there is a huge difference. I sometimes enjoy others suffer or feeling embarrassed since i feel more better than them. I remember making a rumor of this girl i did not really know. I told people she sucked a guys **** and everyone was making fun of her for being a ***** and i enjoyed it, but in the end i felt a little guilty but then again its rare for me to feel empathy so now i don't feel guilty. I also made a rumor that my bestfriend was gay and alot of people believed me and he got embarrased and i just felt joy from that. ( i know its sickening even to my own friend) he found out it was me who made it but he forgave me and were friends still to this day.

I also blend in with the people in my school so i dont think anyone knows who i really am on the inside. I always like to manipulate people like my best friend i made a rumor about. It feels like a game and im the headmaster and its quite exciting.

and dont worrry im not gonna become a pyscho murderer and kill everyone i know better than that! i have morals too!

The reason i ask this question is to actually see if you guys think im a sociopath, im not diagnosed but im pretty sure i am.

[glok]

Welcome to the Community, Thelonelyboy123. You might get a better answer here: Antisocial Personality Disorder - Forums at Psych Central

Or, here: Ask the Therapist

I wish you well.

[aventurapsych]

it doesn't sound like you are a sociopath.