[Irine]

and he studies come and ruin it all.
hey don`t get me wrong! i love what i am doing...

nice to have a site where you can complain as much as you want and not to get such comments as "stop complaining".
i have that -too much of andrenaline....
you kniow, sometimes you just NEED the time to yourself.
and it`s not that i am depressed or in a bad mood or whatever...i actually feel like laughing and stuff....
i just don`t want to "fall off"....to break the cycle of my roatine, it finally started getting balanced and now i sit and don`t go to bed and don`t work either.

BUT EVERY TIME I OPEN THE DOCUMENT AND TRY TO WRITE THE WORK I FEEL SO SLEEPY
that sucks hehe. now this very moment i am not sleepy at all.

eh, what can i do?
life is beautiful, but it could be PERFECT if i could just start working. i delay, delay-finally FORCE MYSELF to do it and then almost fall asleep! then i go eat something, come back and try AGAIN but my mind refuses. i just read the text and it freaks me out. the tex. freaks me out.

DON`T want to adn that`s it. i am not in pressure right now but i`m afraid i`ll be soon if i don`t get SERIOUS
i was very serious last week. hardly opened the internet.
now here i am again.

i don`t want to let myself fall...

can anyone relate to that....
i guess it happened to you guys, didn`t it?

"like some ****** %#@&#! freak
i`m so pressured i`m so weak
beautiful and carefree that`s how i used to be"
(Korn)