Wanna wanna wanna

Wanna cut and it's gonna turn into will cut and then it'll turn into have cut and then it'll be wanna again...cycle.

dont, dont, dont!

find another activity. Go run in the streets, shout at the TV do anything but dont cut tammy.

NO! Tamzi-stay here, chat with us, don't leave until this urge passes. What do you want to talk about?

Find something, anything that will distract you! You can get past this without cutting!! {{{{{tamzin}}}}}

Please stay as busy as humanly possible! If you're doing just one thing at a time, try doing 6 things at a time! We don't want to see you hurting yourself!

Hang in there, stay busy, and stay safe.

Thanks for all your help guys. I'll try to keep all of that in mind. Oh and Lexi, no worries on the keeping busy thing. I have a four page essay in for tomorrow, and another History essay also in for tomorrow, so I'm gonna be running round trying to do them very soon. Wish me luck!

Damn urges! I've tried distracting myself, but it's not working. Gonna have to cut or I'll never get to sleep...

Tamzin, is there anyone you can call? Please take care of you. Would you like to tell us more of what's going on right now that makes you want to cut?

Rap

It's just stress and general misery and self-loathing tbh.

Stress can be a pretty big thing. It gets to me too quite often. What can you do to give yourself a chance to relax and let go of the stress before it gets overwhelming?

Rap

Probably consider posting here more, or telling someone irl how I really feel.

Okay. We'll be here when you are ready, or talking to someone irl is a good plan too.

Thanks Rap. It's good to know you're here.

I figure I'm only doing it for attention anyway. I'm disgusting. I hate myself. Just ignore me please.

You are none of those things although I do understand how that voice can tear us apart.

Hang in there as long as you can.

Petunia

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I see the tamzinrose who is supportive of others and offers them her wishes and hopes.

There is a dark cloud above her head right now and she can't see through it, but others can.

It will lift. She just has to believe it.

Believing in Santa never got me anywhere. Why is this any different?

I'm sorry, tamzin. I thought I could help. I didn't mean to upset you more.

Maybe someone else can offer you more.

I wish you the best,

Petunia

{{{{{{tamzin}}}}}} If I'm not anything 'bad' or negative for SI, then neither are you. Be as kind to yourself as you are to others, hun...you deserve it too. =)

Petunia, I am so so so sorry. I was so mean to you and I am so sorry! I didn't mean to upset you. I'm sorry! I think I should just not post. I don't seem to do that well. I'm sorry.

You did help. I'm sorry.

I feel like a fake. I think I'll leave PC. I don't think it's fair for me to stay here. Everything I do and say is just for attention. It's horrible for me to inflict my attention seeking on such wonderful people.

Tamzin,

It's up to you whether you stay or go. You are welcome to stay as long as you want to. If you are getting benefit from being here, then I hope you stay. It's okay to need some support and to ask for it. Attention is a legitimate need. Sometimes we just need someone to know and acknowlege that we exist. It makes a big difference to be understood. If you feel like you are not being genuine here, then you probably aren't getting as much benefit or are not being understood as much as you would be if you were more genuine. That doesn't mean that anyone wants you to go - just that you have learned something and you might want to work on it. None of us is perfect.

Sincerely,
Rap

Thanks... I don't know. I think I am being genuine, but I don't think I make myself clear enough. I'd like to stay, but I think I'll just focus on helping other people.