[Eymvee]

I am not Schizoaffective I do not have Aspergers Syndrome. I have never had a delusion or a paranoid or psychotic episode. I wanted to have an excuse for self inflicted emotional pain that simply comes with life and an excuse for behavior that hurt others. When the guilt would on occasion catch up with me I grew scared and guilty and chalked it up to "unnecessary guilt" I am a liar and for multiple reasons decided to keep this up.

[Eymvee]

I suppose I have always been quiet nervous and as I grew older very irritable. I wonder what is wrong w/ me but I suppose I have trouble believing any of my diagnoses are true so I prefer none? Very confused.

[Crazy Hitch]

Who have you lied to about schitzoaffective and aspergers eymvee?

Forgive me if I'm wrong but it sounds like your second post here you were once diagnosed with disorders .... What were the diagnosis?

[Eymvee]

Originally Posted by Hooligan

Who have you lied to about schitzoaffective and aspergers eymvee?

Forgive me if I'm wrong but it sounds like your second post here you were once diagnosed with disorders .... What were the diagnosis?

I was diagnosed with all of these, Aspergers, before that Anxiety and depression and finally Scizoaffective then but I suspect the diagnosis were wrong and I began to play it up I suppose Sorry little confused right now.

[Secretum]

Eymvee, I have met several people here who feel that they have somehow imagined or made up their symptoms at some point, and try to blame themselves. It is natural to question it, especially since when you are not in an episode it can be difficult to remember just how bad things were. Also, many people with psychotic disorders are not always aware that they have a problem. That could be what is happening to you.

You're not a bad person.

[gayleggg]

Yes, sometimes I have trouble accepting my bipolar diagnosis, because it's been quite a while since I had a manic episode it only feels like depression but if you ask anyone that I hurt during a manic episode (especially my husband) they would say I wasn't being realistic. But sometimes it feels as if I made it up. The mind plays a lot of tricks on us. Don't be too hard on yourself.

[Eymvee]

Originally Posted by Secretum

Eymvee, I have met several people here who feel that they have somehow imagined or made up their symptoms at some point, and try to blame themselves. It is natural to question it, especially since when you are not in an episode it can be difficult to remember just how bad things were. Also, many people with psychotic disorders are not always aware that they have a problem. That could be what is happening to you.

You're not a bad person.

I appreciate the kind words

[CapedCrusader]

Everybody Lies - Dr. House

For me, it's normal to lie but there's a limitation for it also. When you lie to someone it's either it helps them or not.