[wisewoman]

I had a puppy chew my charger ans couldn't get on with my temp puter as I don't knw pass word and have had no energy to query it. So I am back. Ya, as usual a lot has happened. I am in unbearable pain and the docs don't quite know why, My back is good where we were treating with methadone and neurontin. O took an extra methadone today which is forbidden but it made me feel better. My primary is checking for some weird disease and I hope he finds it so I can at least have hope. My entire body hurts more the words can say. It hurts to be alive. And, to complicate that my friend's and their families have suffered tremendously. My friend's son shot himself in the head. It has been an ugly and yet beautiful time. He lived a very long time. It is complicated and a story of love.

me, I am never suicidal and here I magically wish for a way to escape the pain which is always a seven until I move. I am in so much freakin pain. I need answers.

[lenjan]

((((((((((WW))))))))))) I've been wondering where and how you were. I'm sorry you're hurting so much. I wish they could find some answers for you!!



Love, Candy

[katheryn]

good to see you back sorry for the pain you are suffering hope they can find some answers soon

[bebop]

wise it is good to see you back! I missed you.

[wisewoman]

thanks Candy, we are all trying

[wisewoman]

Thanks Katherine, it is hard to not get hopeless.

[Raynaadi]

Glad to see you back, I hope you get to feeling better!

[snowflake_48888]

(((((WW)))) I am sorry to hear about your friends son. It sounds like there was some goodness found thru the pain which is good.

I am sorry about the physical pain you are feeling. It's so frustrating when you don't know why or what causes it. I hope the doctors are able to find the cause soon.

Glad to see you WW...its been a while.
Snow

((( wisewoman )))

I'm sorry to hear that you're still in such pain. I was hoping the Pain Clinic would help find you some relief.

My sympathies to you and your friend over the loss of her son.

[Wants2Fly]

I am sorry that you are in such pain and have suffered loss on top of everything else you've been through.

[winnetka]

Wisewoman, I'm sorry to hear that you are in a lot of physical pain, and my condolences for the death of your friend's son.

[(JD)]

I've been worried about you WW and guessed things were not too good since you have been so quiet.

I surely hope you get a break and some positive answers soon. I'm concerned that you used more methadone than you agreed to..and hope that before you do that again you have someone to call. If you continue to need more, they might confine you in a pain center...and from what I hear, that is not a great place in general. TC, please. (((hugs)))

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain ((((((((((( wisewoman ))))))))))

I'm very sorry too for the death of your friend's son

Take care,
Fuzzy

[biiv]

wb wisewoman. i hope your doctors have managed to get your pain under control by now? if not i was wondering if maybe it might be worth it to approach it from a psychosomatic point of view? could it be body memories or a reaction to emotions of some sort? in that case maybe trying meditation or something might take the edge off? also (and even if it is physical) sometimes something like reflexology or reiki can have a very beneficial effect on pain.
being in pain sucks so much. i hope you find some relief as soon as possible.
good luck and take gentle care
biiv