[20oney]

Everyday. I feel down. Sad. Alone.
Everyday, I think about how good my life is at the moment.
Everyday, I think about the things that have happened in the past.
Everyday, I wish I had someone to talk to, someone to help me.
Yet everyday, I remain silent.
I bottle it all in. I won't let anyone past these walls. They keep me safe.
Everyday. I hope to feel happy. I wonder how I could not be, when everything is so good.
I dont understand. What is wrong with me.
I can't open up. Yet I want to. But I can't.
It's too scary. I'm scared. What will they think of me. When I show weakness. They will not see me the same.
I'm so stuck.
I just want someone who I can trust and confide in.
Oh well.

[kaliope]

the error in your thinking is "when i show weakness" because it takes an incredibly strong person to open up and share with another person. an incredibly strong person to trust another person. an incredibly strong person to face the past. an incredibly strong person to drop those walls and feel safe doing so. when you think about it that way, you will have an entirely different perspective.

Originally Posted by 20oney

Everyday. I feel down. Sad. Alone.
Everyday, I think about how good my life is at the moment.
Everyday, I think about the things that have happened in the past.
Everyday, I wish I had someone to talk to, someone to help me.
Yet everyday, I remain silent.
I bottle it all in. I won't let anyone past these walls. They keep me safe.
Everyday. I hope to feel happy. I wonder how I could not be, when everything is so good.
I dont understand. What is wrong with me.
I can't open up. Yet I want to. But I can't.
It's too scary. I'm scared. What will they think of me. When I show weakness. They will not see me the same.
I'm so stuck.
I just want someone who I can trust and confide in.
Oh well.

i hope that you get to feeling better.

remember we're here anytime

[20oney]

Originally Posted by kaliope

the error in your thinking is "when i show weakness" because it takes an incredibly strong person to open up and share with another person. an incredibly strong person to trust another person. an incredibly strong person to face the past. an incredibly strong person to drop those walls and feel safe doing so. when you think about it that way, you will have an entirely different perspective.

I guess it's just too bad I'm not a strong person..