Understanding my triggers

I'm trying to get a handle on all of this. I can feel the moment I have been hit with a trigger and I am trying to understand why it's a trigger and why I react the way I do. I don't like to react that way. I don't like being angry, irritated or agitated at family or friends when they are just trying to talk to me. I don't like the restlessness that I used to pride myself in aka "Team No Sleep."

i understand where you are at in trying to understand why you are reacting to a trigger, or trying to figure out why you were triggered and such. i used to drive myself up a wall doing that. i would really bash myself for spinning out of control for "seemingly no reason". then i developed a mantra that made me feel better and allowed me to let go. understanding that i am mentally ill and having ptsd and that i do get triggered by things i dont understand and i am going to react certain ways and not know why, it is JUST THE WAY I AM WIRED. when i get in these spots i now tell myself that this is NORMAL FOR ME. because it is a totally normal reaction for the way i am wired. so now i dont have to stress about it, which only makes it worse. i can just let it go, which makes it better and lessens the anxiety. hope this helps. take care.

Well, understand the triggers itself, you have to be self aware without lying to yourself. Do you feel fear? Why? Do you feel anger? Why? You do feel all of this, but this happens really fast and you don't have a lot of choice. It will probably happen. You must accept the pain that is already in you for now and don't worry. If it is the fear, aknowledge it, but don't do anything to change it, because it is programmed anyway because of past events. It's basicly the meditation I'm talking about, because it applies the best based on what exactly you want to know. But that's just one part - if you want to really get rid of those feeling, you can't get rid of them with awerness of what is being felt, but with talking about how you felt when this originaly happened and looking into the eye of fear that doesn't exist - this is done in therapy.