[Casey999]

Hello everyone, I just made this account because lately I've been feeling pretty out of sorts and I am looking for thoughts, comments, support, shared experiences; really, any response is appreciated.

For at least a year now I've been going back and forth between feeling extremely agitated and restless to completely hopeless. It doesn't really interfere with my day-to-day productivity but it's still, well, confusing haha . I do well in school and at work but none of my accomplishments really make me feel good. Whenever I'm at work, I pace a lot, I get headaches, and I fidget. I feel like I got to go do something else but I don't even know what I would do. The second I get out of work I feel absolutely drained. When I get a weekend, or a week off, the restlessness comes back. As for school, I do well enough to get by but everything about it is just so mind-numbly boring. Even topics which I thought would be interesting. My grades have really slacked. I tried exercising but I can't stick with it for more than a week or two at a time. After two weeks of exercise I go back to completely drained and then before long the restlessness comes back. I've tried to explore interests, or former interests, but even things I used to enjoy seem rather dull. And then once in a while I feel so drained I just lay in my room and cry and sleep. Then back to anxiously running around.

Another random thought, I feel lately like my life is moving in slow motion but extremely quickly at the same time. I almost started crying today realizing it was June already, but one week of work seems to take a lifetime. Someone will comment on what happened say last week and it'll seem like eons ago to me.

I'm not really looking for professional help as my insurance doesn't cover and I'm trying to avoid meds if at all possible. My mom had bipolar disorder and depression and she says the meds were the worst decision she ever made.

I know I'm not really giving anyone much to go off of here but part of the problem is I don't really know what the actual problem is. Can anyone relate?

[CANDC]

Hi Casey. Welcome to Psych Central (PC). Sorry you are feeling out of sorts. Since you are excluding medical help you might consider life style changes.

I have to watch what I eat because foods I eat can stabilize my moods or exaggerate them. A high protein low carb diet with snacks or meals every 3-4 hours will over time reduce my swings. I also avoid alcohol and recreational drugs because those can really increase depression.

Other lifestyle changes that help me are doing yoga, exercises, mindfulness, calm music, and being active on Psych Central. Counting breaths, one on the inhale, two on the exhale up to 10 then starting at one again helps me not get swamped by thoughts and feelings.

Glad you are joining us here. There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Feel free to participate actively at Psych Central.
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[Ruftin]

Hello and welcome to Psych Central Casey!!! It's nice to meet you. You have joined a community of warm and caring members who will want to offer you support and advice. Yours is welcome as well.

Please feel free to contact any community liaison or moderator by left clicking on their name in blue to the left of their post if you need help navigating the forums. It will take some time for your first five posts to appear as they are being evaluated and then you will be able to join chats.

So sorry for your struggles. You'll find we have a safe and supportive community. I'm glad you've joined us.

I'm Bipolar and it wasn't easy to get adjusted to medications for me either but the benefits far outweighed the risks in my case as I had exhausted every other option. I've learned that medication is not a cure all for this illness. Each individual must make a daily effort to do things in addition to medication to help themselves. Eat right, sleep well, exercise, socialize, breathe fresh air, feel the sun on your face, etc.....

My suggestion for you is to read up on Bipolar disorder. See if any of it is a match for you. Of course without an official assessment by a licensed professional you won't know if you actually have it. I know there are people on this site who have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder who are handling it without medications. Keep reaching out and posting. The more posts you submit here the more likely you'll find someone who is making it without treatment.

I look forward to seeing you around!!!

[healingme4me]

Originally Posted by Casey999

Hello everyone, I just made this account because lately I've been feeling pretty out of sorts and I am looking for thoughts, comments, support, shared experiences; really, any response is appreciated.

For at least a year now I've been going back and forth between feeling extremely agitated and restless to completely hopeless. It doesn't really interfere with my day-to-day productivity but it's still, well, confusing haha . I do well in school and at work but none of my accomplishments really make me feel good. Whenever I'm at work, I pace a lot, I get headaches, and I fidget. I feel like I got to go do something else but I don't even know what I would do. The second I get out of work I feel absolutely drained. When I get a weekend, or a week off, the restlessness comes back. As for school, I do well enough to get by but everything about it is just so mind-numbly boring. Even topics which I thought would be interesting. My grades have really slacked. I tried exercising but I can't stick with it for more than a week or two at a time. After two weeks of exercise I go back to completely drained and then before long the restlessness comes back. I've tried to explore interests, or former interests, but even things I used to enjoy seem rather dull. And then once in a while I feel so drained I just lay in my room and cry and sleep. Then back to anxiously running around.

Another random thought, I feel lately like my life is moving in slow motion but extremely quickly at the same time. I almost started crying today realizing it was June already, but one week of work seems to take a lifetime. Someone will comment on what happened say last week and it'll seem like eons ago to me.

I'm not really looking for professional help as my insurance doesn't cover and I'm trying to avoid meds if at all possible. My mom had bipolar disorder and depression and she says the meds were the worst decision she ever made.

I know I'm not really giving anyone much to go off of here but part of the problem is I don't really know what the actual problem is. Can anyone relate?

It does sound like how depression is. Zest for life, Joie de Vie, zapped.

Not sure what type of exercise regimen you try, but sometimes they can be draining in and of themselves.

I guess the key note that I picked up on, is sliding with studies. Is there anyway to battle through your boredom? Would time off, help?

Medication isn't for everyone, I can appreciate that point, especially with your mom feeling they were a personal mistake. Did she give reason?