And sadness came suddenly...

Hello,

I was playing a game on an internet site which I've played for a long time. Always had good friends, nothing to argue against me.

Early tonight, I was there, on a table with some friends, when one player whom I've never met said to me : "Hey, you, why people don't like you?".

One friend told me by private chat she liked me and didn't understand why this player said that, etc.

But I felt very bad all the same.

I played a while on another table, but sadness came to me so suddenly, a very weird feeling...

I left the game, I could'nt stand it anymore.

I just wanted to share it with you, It shooked me quite hard...

Thank you,

Sincerely

Quite saddened Starbuck




Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.

Starbuck, I am sorry you are feeling bad. That kind of thing happens to me, too...sailing right along, and then something will just knock me right off my feet.

Just know that people definitely like you...no one who knows you would say differently.

*hugs*
mj

Thank You mj14, for your reply. I really do appreciate it.

Sincerely,

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.

Strange to deeply realize how small things can affect me.

When I was young, I would have needed more attention, but what can I say, parents were always away.

This feeling reminded me of some "striking-fast-panic-emptiness-feeling" I had back in my childhood.

Take care,

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.

I am very sensitive to small things too and it is something i'm working on with my therapist.

but having that as a basic personality trait it is even harder when it is magnified by a thousandfold by the negativity and paranoia of depression.

but i can at least say that I like you

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--http://www.idexter.com

I can relate to this, Dexter, ty vm for sharing it with me...

Sincerely,

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.

Hey, thank you folks !

I'm glad you're here...

Sincerely,

Starbuck


Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.

Ouch! Starbuck, I'm so sorry that person was so mean. It's so hard when you're sailing along minding your own business, your defenses are down and some twerp decides to tromp on you. I know that pang in the gut and wanting to just go hide. I hope how you're feeling dissapates quickly.
One of my favorite movies is the Wizard Of OZ. I use Glenda's line when she's talking to the wicked witch in munchkinland. "Be gone. You have no power here." My counselor even gave me a golden wand. I know it's silly but it helps me put things into perspective. And when I'm not feeling so sweet, I use, "Don't let the f***ers get you down."
I'll be sending good thoughts your way! Annie

Hi Annie,

Thank you for your reply,

I'd like everything that we wished could be so easy, lol...

Take care

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.

Maybe it was the straw that broke the camel's back. I hope that discussing it here has helped you to get yourself back on track. Maybe that person was just plain spiteful and mean, but you know that we like you and other people like you, so they just don't know what they are talking about.

Yeah, small things can be enough to push me over the edge sometimes too. Sometimes it depends on how much garbage is already building up and I'm not dealing with it - just going along acting like I'm fine.

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Hey Starbuck,

I'm sorry you're hurting, I can see in your words how this has made you feel. I was immediately struck by how this person took it upon themself to make a broad-based comment of "Why do people...". How does he know how other people know feel about you? But it sure does make you feel bad, I know it would me. Some people can be very thoughtless in the things they say, not thinking about how the other person will feel. This was one faceless person, try to take this with a grain of salt, Starbuck.

That being said, in the short time I've known you, I've found you to be friendly, outgoing, warm, and caring. Absolutely nothing about you to not like. I'm glad you're here, and I hope you stick around for a long time.

Hope your day's a good one,
Greg



"Beauty is truth, truth is beauty - that is all you know on earth, and all you need to know"

Thank you for your reply, Rap.

I like this expression : "the straw that broke the camel back". Yes, I guess it was, and I feel quite vulnerable in those occasions.

But I feel quite better today.

Thank you again,

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.

Hi Greg,

Thank you also for your reply, Greg.

Having support here gives me strengh to carry on.

Take care Greg,

Sincerely,

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Majors in History and Theology. Master in Sociology.