[Flickster]

Hello everyone, I am a 14 year old girl. I come from a very loving family, but there's just something I have been struggling with for a while now. 2 years around this time my anxiety got really bad. I got very anxious when I was talking to just one person I would do fine in groups of 2 other people other than me or more. I was extremely afraid that I'd be boring and in my eyes I guess the other person in the group would take away the pressure to talk and there really wouldn't be any "awkward moments" anyway I almost conquered that, but I think it may have brought on something even worse. I am always tired, always feel "empty" or sad. I used to enjoy horseback riding more than anything in the world and very very quickly am loosing interest. It's a giant task to get dressed/ get out of bed. I am also very very scared that my friends won't like me or if someone shows signs of disapproval ect.

Possible trigger:

I've also started coping with my pain by self harm, about 5 months ago i started and at first it was once a month maybe. now it's nearly every day. Sometimes I do it just because I am addicted.

I know I need help, a phsycyatrist is not an option simply because my family is struggling very much with budget so if there's maybe a phone number or maybe if I could get an opinion about what could be wrong with me. I've done a lot of research but I do not want to self diagnose. Thank you very much or taking the time to read this have a good day!

[Expartygirl77]

Sounds like good old depression and anxiety but like u said I'm no where near in a place to diagnose u but there's a site called teenlineonline.org and maybe look into to write on her arms with live things get better I'm a depressed mess and my depression hit me at 14 that's when I started getting treated for bipolar

[ensconce]

If you are in the U.S you can contact nami https://www.nami.org/Find-Your-Local-NAMI
They can guide you to get some help.