my name is anna and i would like to explain something.
my friend smilesandcries will help me explain it better.
i have difficulty explaining things for people to understand so my friend smilesandcries is going to help me explain.

i usually enjoy my brain and it's difference, however lately it has made me sad because i wish to drive a car. people who do not have the disorder i do are allowed to drive cars, but i am not allowed to ever drive a car. i don't think this is fair. sometimes my brain gets locked and does things differently, even though i don't intend to do things "the wrong way".

this is different when i do mathematics.
i am very good at mathematics. math is consistent.
sometimes my words don't come as simple to me as mathematics. sometimes when i try to form sentences they come out wrong even though i don't intend for them to come out that way, i get confused. my mouth doesn't match what my thoughts are. it never relays the message i am thinking.

i don't count my words as truth when they come out wrong, i know what i am thinking and how i truly feel, it just comes out wrong.

i love all of my friends at psychcentral. lots of my friends here are always talking about finding the truth. truth is the best thing next to knowledge. the truth is hard to understand, but you always become happy when you find out the truth. i don't have the capabilities to explain the truth, sometimes i wish i could escape my brain, i feel trapped. i don't have the same capabilities as "regular" people. however knowing the truth inside me is all i need.

[avlady]

i have similiar troubles. i want to say certain things i'm thinking, but it comes out all wrong. i also can't drive a car, my cognition is all messed up. i am right now coming off a med, and its making it worse.

[avlady]

my son sat down with me a few months ago and i swear he was reading my mind. i mean he said , mom, i am soo afraid to die i cant do anything because of it. i had been fearing death my whole life, im 54 now. He is 24 had 3 years of college and is a musician on guitar. he rarely goes outside too. i don't know the words to say what he need to hear. any thoughts?

[Fuzzybear]

Thank you for this post, Anna. You have written beautiful thoughts and ideas here.

[LettinG0]

Yes, Anna....thank you. You have written many beautiful things here and I always enjoy your posts......

[Angelwngs25]

You are very smart Anna, now that your friend smilesandcries made it to where I can fully understand what you are trying to say. I appreciate that you posted this. It helped me to understand that you are crazy smart. I love you Anna, never change Anna you are beautiful in every way, shape and form.

[BeaFlower]

Thanks for this post It's lovely that your friend helped you to explain yourself.
I can drive in theory, but I'm not able to because of fear, and I feel ashamed Hope that you can find independence, with or without a car.

[That What]

Originally Posted by Anna72914

my name is anna and i would like to explain something.
my friend smilesandcries will help me explain it better.
i have difficulty explaining things for people to understand so my friend smilesandcries is going to help me explain.

i usually enjoy my brain and it's difference, however lately it has made me sad because i wish to drive a car. people who do not have the disorder i do are allowed to drive cars, but i am not allowed to ever drive a car. i don't think this is fair. sometimes my brain gets locked and does things differently, even though i don't intend to do things "the wrong way".

this is different when i do mathematics.
i am very good at mathematics. math is consistent.
sometimes my words don't come as simple to me as mathematics. sometimes when i try to form sentences they come out wrong even though i don't intend for them to come out that way, i get confused. my mouth doesn't match what my thoughts are. it never relays the message i am thinking.

i don't count my words as truth when they come out wrong, i know what i am thinking and how i truly feel, it just comes out wrong.

i love all of my friends at psychcentral. lots of my friends here are always talking about finding the truth. truth is the best thing next to knowledge. the truth is hard to understand, but you always become happy when you find out the truth. i don't have the capabilities to explain the truth, sometimes i wish i could escape my brain, i feel trapped. i don't have the same capabilities as "regular" people. however knowing the truth inside me is all i need.

No right (rule) way and No wrong (rule) way doing something. Seeing numbers on papers and calculating numbers one hand-eye coordination looking down probably hunched over sitting "locked" indoor safe feeling space. Something good doing.

Learning on paper 6 foot = 72 inches = 2 yards does not teach us how to see 6 feet = 72 inches = 2 yards away from standing and/or sitting positions. Same with hearing or seeing words does not explain physical application.

Learn juggling. Juggling involves mathematical patterns. Juggling teaches enlarging focus widening seeing and two hand larger motions and "possible" minor non-injuries, miscalculating measurements distances ball bouncing on face. More juggling learned more possibilities. What about hand and foot juggling or larger object juggling?

Gaining physical abilities feeling good doing something "unknown" and "self learning" opens more possibilities.