I feel very confused because i have no precise idea of what is wrong with me.
I recently got out of a mental institution for children(i'm 17 years old) because of my suicidal attempt and i've been diagnosed with anxious-depressive syndrome (i have extreme social anxiety). After a week in that hospital i told the psychiatrist i couldn't stay there anymore because it drove me crazy and so he let me go. I was prescribed medication but i refused to take them, i was suspicious about it.
What is bothering me is that i don't think the psychiatrist got to the bottom of my problem (in a week there's not much you can do i guess). I first came across the term borderline at 12 i think,i did some research on the net because i thought my mom had it.Only recently i came to the conclusion that all this time i've been struggling with this personality disorder and i've been looking in the wrong places.I used to think i was bipolar but i didn't have maniac episodes. I did some borderline screening testes and i've scored high each time.What is more,i've scored high at schizotypal personality too,eating disorders,obsessive-compulsive( the extreme hand-washing thing). I looked at the schizotypal personality disorder and i read that the bordeline disorder,ocd,eating disorders, are all things a schizotypal is in range of developping along the way. I guess you'd all tell me to seek professional help but my mother wouldn't listen to me. In fact,i think she's in this constant state of denial. She refuses to talk with me about all these things,like i am all imagining it and it will pass. But it won't. And it takes up more and more of my life and i don't know what to do anymore.
*sorry for the long post

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by melaniachore

I feel very confused because i have no precise idea of what is wrong with me.
I recently got out of a mental institution for children(i'm 17 years old) because of my suicidal attempt and i've been diagnosed with anxious-depressive syndrome (i have extreme social anxiety). After a week in that hospital i told the psychiatrist i couldn't stay there anymore because it drove me crazy and so he let me go. I was prescribed medication but i refused to take them, i was suspicious about it.
What is bothering me is that i don't think the psychiatrist got to the bottom of my problem (in a week there's not much you can do i guess). I first came across the term borderline at 12 i think,i did some research on the net because i thought my mom had it.Only recently i came to the conclusion that all this time i've been struggling with this personality disorder and i've been looking in the wrong places.I used to think i was bipolar but i didn't have maniac episodes. I did some borderline screening testes and i've scored high each time.What is more,i've scored high at schizotypal personality too,eating disorders,obsessive-compulsive( the extreme hand-washing thing). I looked at the schizotypal personality disorder and i read that the bordeline disorder,ocd,eating disorders, are all things a schizotypal is in range of developping along the way. I guess you'd all tell me to seek professional help but my mother wouldn't listen to me. In fact,i think she's in this constant state of denial. She refuses to talk with me about all these things,like i am all imagining it and it will pass. But it won't. And it takes up more and more of my life and i don't know what to do anymore.
*sorry for the long post

yes 17 is such a hard age. lots of physical changing going on that can cause mood swings and other similar to mental problems kinds of problems.

you wrote...
What is bothering me is that i don't think the psychiatrist got to the bottom of my problem (in a week there's not much you can do i guess)

yes theres not much psychiatrists can do for you if you in your words...

After a week in that hospital i told the psychiatrist i couldn't stay there anymore because it drove me crazy and so he let me go. I was prescribed medication but i refused to take them, i was suspicious about it.

if your not going to stay in the program and not take the meds the trade off is continuing to have problems.

the only suggestion i have in regards to this is if you want to feel better contact that treatment provider and take the meds. the choices are yours.

you wrote ...

i have no precise idea of what is wrong with me.

but then you answered your own idea of not knowing what is wrong with you by writing this...

I recently got out of a mental institution for children(i'm 17 years old) because of my suicidal attempt and i've been diagnosed with anxious-depressive syndrome (i have extreme social anxiety).

that right there says what the hospital treatment providers said was wrong with you... so its not a situation of you not knowing whats wrong with you...I take it to mean you know but do not agree with what they say is wrong with you...

good news. if you dont agree with a diagnosis you can contact that psychiatrist and ask for a new evaluation of what your mental disorders are. that psychiatrist can give you new tests that can tell you with out a doubt whether you have a mental disorder or not and the tests can be given with out being hospitalized. they are like taking written and oral tests in school.

one thing you need to know is that if the test scoring you are talking about in your post is online they are for diagnosis purposes. they can only tell you how you answered the questions in the moment that you answered them. online tests are missing key components/questions like they dont take into consideration what meds you are, your personal health, your culture, your educational background, all kinds of things. so please do not base whether you have this or that mental disorder based on online tests. you can end up doing more harm to your self. the only way someone knows for sure what their mental and physical health diagnosis are is by contacting /seeing and being treated by their own medical and psychiatric doctors.

let me show you what I mean...I took one online test 10 times and each time it told me I had all kinds of mental disorders. some which do not even exist any more because what you find online has been floating around for years and decades and times change. one test even told me I had issues that only men get (Im a woman) one test told me I had a problem that is only in the Mexican Culture (Im not Mexican) one test told me I had schizophrenia when my actual diagnosis was a physical health problem called MS. one test told me it was schizo typical personality disorder when in fact the problem was lack of sleep...

my point is we are not here to diagnose and online tests can not diagnose what is wrong with you either, only your doctors can do that,

the only thing I can tell you is take your meds see your psychiatrist when scheduled and you will probably be feeling better soon.

Originally Posted by amandalouise

yes 17 is such a hard age. lots of physical changing going on that can cause mood swings and other similar to mental problems kinds of problems.

you wrote...
What is bothering me is that i don't think the psychiatrist got to the bottom of my problem (in a week there's not much you can do i guess)

yes theres not much psychiatrists can do for you if you in your words...

After a week in that hospital i told the psychiatrist i couldn't stay there anymore because it drove me crazy and so he let me go. I was prescribed medication but i refused to take them, i was suspicious about it.

if your not going to stay in the program and not take the meds the trade off is continuing to have problems.

the only suggestion i have in regards to this is if you want to feel better contact that treatment provider and take the meds. the choices are yours.

you wrote ...

i have no precise idea of what is wrong with me.

but then you answered your own idea of not knowing what is wrong with you by writing this...

I recently got out of a mental institution for children(i'm 17 years old) because of my suicidal attempt and i've been diagnosed with anxious-depressive syndrome (i have extreme social anxiety).

that right there says what the hospital treatment providers said was wrong with you... so its not a situation of you not knowing whats wrong with you...I take it to mean you know but do not agree with what they say is wrong with you...

good news. if you dont agree with a diagnosis you can contact that psychiatrist and ask for a new evaluation of what your mental disorders are. that psychiatrist can give you new tests that can tell you with out a doubt whether you have a mental disorder or not and the tests can be given with out being hospitalized. they are like taking written and oral tests in school.

one thing you need to know is that if the test scoring you are talking about in your post is online they are for diagnosis purposes. they can only tell you how you answered the questions in the moment that you answered them. online tests are missing key components/questions like they dont take into consideration what meds you are, your personal health, your culture, your educational background, all kinds of things. so please do not base whether you have this or that mental disorder based on online tests. you can end up doing more harm to your self. the only way someone knows for sure what their mental and physical health diagnosis are is by contacting /seeing and being treated by their own medical and psychiatric doctors.

let me show you what I mean...I took one online test 10 times and each time it told me I had all kinds of mental disorders. some which do not even exist any more because what you find online has been floating around for years and decades and times change. one test even told me I had issues that only men get (Im a woman) one test told me I had a problem that is only in the Mexican Culture (Im not Mexican) one test told me I had schizophrenia when my actual diagnosis was a physical health problem called MS. one test told me it was schizo typical personality disorder when in fact the problem was lack of sleep...

my point is we are not here to diagnose and online tests can not diagnose what is wrong with you either, only your doctors can do that,

the only thing I can tell you is take your meds see your psychiatrist when scheduled and you will probably be feeling better soon.

thanks for your reply.Taking the meds is not an option, i don't trust anything that was made in a lab. Anyway,i guess the only thing i can do is wait and see what happens next, maybe is just a phase.