[darkfoxx]

For as long as I can remember I've never felt like I can be myself. 9 months ago I sought professional help to deal with some issues from the past and combat my depression and anxiety. I was in a marriage I knew was failing and almost immediately after that got divorced. Reflecting on my life I can see where my short-comings were. I have very low interpersonal communication and often feel like I have no opinions on everything causing me to be more quiet and reserved. I've been self-diagnosing myself for years flipping between several personality disorders, I brought up a few to my dr's and always got denied. I don't know if it would help having a diagnosis or not but I feel like I need a name for whatever it is. The latest have been Avoidant PD and now Borderline PD. Frankly, I'm sick of being told I'm normal and only have minor issues, these minor issues are pushing me down the rabbit hole and I often feel like I'm spiraling out of control. My behavior has become more reckless lately and even though I can see it, I still do these things. I think having a diagnosis will help me to reach out to similar people and figure out how to fix these broken things inside of me.

[Skeezyks]

Hello darkfoxx: You know... I've been rattling around the mental health system now for going on 20 years. I've seen psychiatrists, nurse practitioners & therapists. I've been hospitalized twice. I still don't actually have a diagnosis. I suppose there's something written down somewhere. But, whatever it is, it's not based on anything more than just superficial conversation. I presume it would say depression & generalized anxiety disorder or some such thing. The fact is that it's just easier & cheaper for the system to say I'm depressed & to prescribe antidepressants, than it would be to actually try to help me figure out what's going on with me.

I've often felt sort-of short-changed by not having a real diagnosis. But, I'm older & realistically at this point in my life it really doesn't make a whole lot of difference for me. However, I do understand how you feel about this. I have felt the same way. Unfortunately, I don't know what one does about it other than to keep looking for a mental health professional who will take a serious look at your situation & help you to come to an

[capricorn1975]

I hope you can find a Dr. who can find out exactly what is wrong with you. Then hopefully you can find the treatment you need. Good luck.