[scaredycat3]

For about 2 months I've noticed new symptoms that interfere with my daily life and I don't know what it is or if I should be alarmed.

First of all, I've had a few delusions.
I'm diagnosed with OCD (pure o) so at first I thought they were intrusive thoughts. But it got worse and I'll actually believe my delusions when I'm anxious or sad. Afterwards I recognize them as irrational, but they stay around and return later.

Example: My friends were not present at school one day, and for some reason it made me really upset and I was convinced that they were avoiding me because I'm actually retarded. I thought a teacher or parent had convinced them to hang out with me and that this would be their chance to leave me.
I almost confronted them about it later.

When I'm in crowds it feels like people are reading my mind or trying to hurt me, and that they're dropping subtle hints about me when they talk.
I'm the most scared and paranoid when it's dark.

Another thing is that I don't feel real - everything has started to seem so fake. When I go outside it feels like everything is set up like a scene, and everybody is watching me. It's hard to explain.
I'ts getting difficult to tell the difference between dreams and reality since everything feels like a dream.
When I'm walking or doing something it feels like it's not my body and that I'm observing the world through someone else.

But the most annoying thing for me is that my mind never shuts up.
There's always voices arguing, telling me to kill myself, telling me to not trust people etc. They're difficult to explain because they don't sound like they're coming from the outside.
It's like someone else is controlling my thoughts for me. I don't know if they're intrusive thoughts, I've never really had this many "voices" before.

I started going to a therapist a couple weeks ago, but the problem is that there's no progress. Nothing gets done.
It feels like I'm not getting the help I need since we're mostly working with my OCD and I just can't figure out whatever this is.

I don't even know if I should bring it up.
I'm having multiple intrusive thoughts telling me that I'm lying and that I shouldn't take it seriously.

That's why I'm asking for help here - I want some perspective and if these symptoms seem familiar to anyone, please tell me what it could be about. Should I take it seriously or is it just the way my brain works?

[MiddayNap]

I do think these are related to your OCD and that you should definitely bring them up to your therapist. I got this way in high-school, more than likely it was a result of extreme emotional stress and an overly active imagination. I was convinced of so many things some believable and some rather bizarre. I assume OCD must cause emotional stress, which would probably worsen the symptom of intrusive thoughts.
I also get those thoughts saying "It never happened. You're fine; nothing is really bothering you. You're making it up to get attention. Liar. You're just a lying attention-***** over-complicating things." I don't get them as often as I did in my "dark period", thank goodness.
In my opinion, these thoughts are a product of fear-a fear that others will think these things of you if you were to confide in them. It is a defense mechanism of sorts, only it is more destructive than preservative.
Just because it is "how your brain works" doesn't mean you shouldn't take it seriously.
I wish you luck.

[SoScorpio]

I get what you mean about feeling like people are watching you, and telling yourself negative things. That part I agree with MiddayNap on, it's a defense mechanism, because you think that's what people will say if you tell them your problems. Unfortunately, many people will tell you you're overreacting. But not your therapist -- that's what they're there for.

As for the other symptoms, it sounds almost like you are dissociating. Here's an article on dissociation: In-Depth: Understanding Dissociative Disorders | Psych Central
Keep in mind though, that you can dissociate without having a dissociative "disorder". It could very well be that you're distressed by the problems your OCD causes, and that causes you to dissociate, to distance yourself.

[PumpkinPieHead]

I would be alarmed, I've had similar symptoms before, and I'm glad I got some meds to help.

Please check in often, you deserve more than all of that junk dulling your shine.

[amandalouise]

these symptoms can be any number of normal medical or mental health problems...example when I dont get enough sleep I start hearing voices such as you describe, when I skip meals I hear voices such as you describe, I also have OCD and when Im having OCD related problems I hear voices such as you describe, I also hear voices such as you describe as part of my bipolar disorder (hallucinations\delusions\psychosis)
the one thing my treatment providers do not call it is dissociative problem due to the problem suddenly happening (not a life long type voices that came with my DID and dissociative disorders do not include the diagnostic criteria of hearing voices)

with me what solves the problem is making sure I get enough sleep, and nutrition and my treatment providers adjust \change my medications.

my suggestion....since we can not diagnose what your problems are you may want to contact your treatment providers or a treatment provider in your off computer location. they can assess why you are having these problems and get you treated for them so that you will feel better soon.